Mayumi Cruz > Quotes

“Life is meant to be cherished, and lived, and risked. You’re scared of the past and all its mistakes. You’re afraid of the future and all its unpredictabilities. I understand that. But you have to learn to take courage. You have to let go and forgive. You have to trust and hope for a happy future.”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“Can't you for once, just this once, stop over thinking, and just…feel?”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“the kiss he was giving her today was oh, so achingly slow and heart-stirringly tender. It tugged at the deepest corners of her heart, pulled at every heartstring, stirred each nerve ending. It was so beautifully poignant she felt like crying and laughing at the same time. She felt him—every fiber, every atom of his being, even his very soul—meshed with her own.”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“Oblivion is bliss. It makes one feel at peace.
But not quite.
Not quite.
My brain is at peace.
But my heart isn't.
It longs for its other half.
The half that comprises the whole.
The half that matches its beat.
The half that makes it throb.
The half that makes it strong to overcome anything.
Even oblivion.”
― Mayumi Cruz, Chroma Hearts

“Stop running and start feeling.”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“You still lost, Marj. You still got hurt. And losing and hurting are what I don’t want.”
Her sister held her stare. “Do you honestly think you’re not losing and hurting now, as you speak?”
She didn’t have an answer to that. She didn’t need to. Her heart was busy shattering into pieces. Why was that? She got out before she was even in, didn’t she? She should be congratulating herself for being spared of the certainty of heartbreak and tears. Why was she feeling like a huge part of herself was gone, replaced by a bottomless hole where regret and longing suddenly took up residence, and where questions like ‘if you were only brave enough’ and ‘what if things turn out differently than you expected’ echoed endlessly within its walls?”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“No amount of darkness can dim my love for you. I will be your lighthouse to guide you through the night, until you return to the safety of the shore. Our shore. Come back to me, babe. Come back, because I'm not going anywhere…without you.”
― Mayumi Cruz, Chroma Hearts

“There’s lust…and then there’s chemistry. There’s a big difference between the two.”

“Lust is a physical connection. Nothing more, nothing less. Chemistry, on the other hand, is beyond physical.”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“Then beat yourself up if you want to. Afterward, rise above the unreasonable guilt you’ve imposed on yourself. Life is all about rising every time we fall, not only when we feel like it.”
― Mayumi Cruz, The Billionaire's Widow

“It was just a simple meeting of the eyes. There was nothing to it. She had done so with countless people. And she had stared at his eyes before, back at the cinema. But there was something different at that exact time, in that exact situation, with exactly the same person.
It was like being struck by lightning. Sudden, electric, paralyzing.
And she knew he felt it too. For some inexplicable reason, they both found themselves unable to look away, powerless to deny the pull. Hypnotized by each other’s brown irises, without knowing nor caring who wielded the magic wand of trance which put them into some kind of conscious stupor. While the world and everything in it faded in the background and the noises outside were hushed, Alex was achingly aware of herself. Of how drawn she was to the deep, swirling pools of dark honey staring into her soul, magnetic and mystic at the same time. Of how every nerve and every cell of her body were ablaze, tongues of flame flittering over them, singeing her with a torturous warmth. Of the blaring sound of her pulse pounding heavily beneath the onslaught of his sensual thumb. It was a scintillating torment she didn’t want to end.”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“Now I'm locked up in a cage with only the memories of a forbidden love that was gone too soon.”
― Mayumi Cruz, The Unfaithful Wife

“You said you deserve the truth. For the first time in a long time, I’m being honest. I’m honest with you. Why can't you be honest with me? Why can't you be honest with yourself? Why can’t you be honest about us?”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“Oh, you foolish, foolish man,” she groaned, as she cupped her mouth with her hand, tears tumbling down her cheeks. “That handkerchief is not mine. And that is not W.”
― Mayumi Cruz, Chroma Hearts

“Life beckoned to me in the form of a blinding white light, coaxing me to come near it and grasp it. To live again. To exist again among the living. But I didn't want to. Not anymore.
Death was a better choice.
But Death did not want me. Yet.
There was only one thing to do, then.
I must escape Life.
I turned away from the light, but it followed me. I ran, as fast as I can, but it was still behind me. I couldn’t lose it, however hard I tried. It was gaining on me! Out of breath, I turned into a dark alley and found myself in a barren stretch of land. I dropped to the ground as the light came into sight. And I knew that to avoid it, there was nothing else to do…but go underground.
With my bare hands, I scratched and scraped and clawed on the ground, and my fingernails cracked, and my hands became bloodied. But I didn't stop. I must not stop. I must not let the light get me.
So, I scratched and clawed and scraped the soil. Tears and perspiration mingled on my face, dripping down to the hole I was digging. “Still, I went on, and on, and on, focused on my task.
Finally, a hole big enough appeared out of my efforts. Coughing, short of breath, I crawled inside, worming my way in. I curled up my body. I pulled my knees to my chest, folded my arms around them, and wriggled myself in, until I was deeply and comfortably nestled in. No vacant spaces, no empty void. Just me and the hole.
I was a perfect fit for the dark pit I created for myself.
Gradually, my breathing returned to normal, my heart softly beating. Gratefully, I closed my eyes, allowing the darkness to engulf me wholly, shielding me from the light called Life.”
― Mayumi Cruz, Chroma Hearts

“It didn’t feel like they were strangers who just met a few days ago. In fact, it felt like she had known him for a long time. She was one with him, feeling him, internalizing him, and by opening up his whole life to her, he synthesized their souls and their hearts into one.”
― Mayumi Cruz, Escape to Love: A Romantic Comedy Adventure: Book 1 Meet The Petersons Series

“Never settle…unless it’s forever.”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“Remember what I told you back in Japan.”
She remembered what it was. Talk and listen. The basics of communication and the key to almost all marrige woes, according to Maureen.
Why was it always easier said than done?”
― Mayumi Cruz, Hunted Honeymoon

“He needed to hear her voice, needed to know she’s breathing and living. He needed to feel her heart was still his.”
― Mayumi Cruz, Hunted Honeymoon

“After everything that’s happened, nothing can ever change what I feel about you. Not the dark past, nor the uncertain future. What matters is us, now. Nothing else.”
― Mayumi Cruz, The Billionaire's Widow

“I want to hear you say what my father
wisely realized from your actions a while ago."
"And what was that?"
"You know, the. . . 'you love him' part?"
"I don't know what you mean," she smiling
mischievously as she said so.
"Don't you go cold feet on me again! I know
what my father said was true. I knew it long before he did, but I still want to hear it from you."
"Well...”
"Say it. Or I swear I'll kiss you breathless and
we'll end up in a hospital, with the doctors operating to disentangle our stuck lips.”
― Mayumi Cruz, Escape to Love: A Romantic Comedy Adventure: Book 1 Meet The Petersons Series

“Love, as she knew it, did not make a person feel vulnerable and defenseless, or generate confusion, or send butterflies in one's stomach! It didn't make one want to laugh and cry at the same time, or feel annoyed and excited in a flash, or want to inflict pain or care for someone simultaneously. It didn't make one despise oneself for responding to a kiss like that, wanting it to end, and yet feeling such unbearable longing and yearning for it, needing it to go on and on and on. Love, she admonished herself firmly, doesn't make one do or feel those things.”
― Mayumi Cruz

“I will continue doing it, even if it takes a lifetime. Because I love her. I love her enough to look past the horror of what was done to her and cast my eyes forward, rebuilding our future.”
― Mayumi Cruz, Chroma Hearts

“She was her own woman; has been and always will be. Never mind that her heart was torn into shreds and wouldn’t stop bleeding, yearning for him after everything he’s done.”
― Mayumi Cruz, The Billionaire's Widow

“She finally came to understand that fear is a curious thing. It can make one hide and scurry away from the object of fear. But it can also give a person courage and strength. Courage to face the very thing you’re afraid of, and the strength to conquer it.”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“A feeling so alien persisted inside him. He searched for a word to describe it. The nearest word he could come up with was elation. He was full of immeasurable joy because she was simply there. She was near him, breathing the air he breathes, treading the very ground on which he walks. She was with him, on this island, in this very moment. And somehow, it gave him the most amazing kind of peace.”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“All I heard was the sound of my own heart.
Beating, but not breathing.
Alive, but not living.
Whole, but fatally broken.”
― Mayumi Cruz, Chroma Hearts

“Love should give one peace, not turmoil; security, not uncertainty; happiness, not anguish; hope, not despair; and contentment, not fear.”
― Mayumi Cruz, Escape to Love: A Romantic Comedy Adventure: Book 1 Meet The Petersons Series

“Do you know that when he first kissed me, I was thinking of you? I was remembering my promise, my vows to you.”
― Mayumi Cruz, The Unfaithful Wife

“You’re not running around. You’re running away, as you’d always done.”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics

“She saw it now. He needed her. Not her body, not for pleasure. But her presence, her strength, her character. He really, truly needed her.
And she loved the feeling of being needed by him. Providing him with what only she can give him: her strength, her positivity, her self. She knew she made him happy, and him being happy made her happy, too. Her own happiness was intertwined with his. Just like his misery. When she hurt him with her words, she inflicted herself with the same pain.”
― Mayumi Cruz, It's Not Just Semantics