Ellie Monago > Quotes

“I remember my mother’s emotional absence, the vacuum where a person should have been, the shell; I”
― Ellie Monago, Neighborly

“No one else can know me; that's why I drink.”
― Ellie Monago

“It’s not that I enjoy being in constant motion; it’s that what I want most is to relax, and I can’t allow myself relaxation until everything’s done.”
― Ellie Monago, Neighborly

“We’re twins, Sadie and me. No, we’re two molecules who act on each other. Sometimes we make a beautiful compound; today, we’re spontaneously combusting.”
― Ellie Monago, Neighborly

“I don’t want to be that wife who stands by silently, awash in resentment.”
― Ellie Monago, Neighborly

“Anger can make you feel powerful.” “You’re wrong. Anger makes me feel out of control.”
― Ellie Monago, Neighborly

“I can’t allow myself relaxation until everything’s done.”
― Ellie Monago, Neighborly

“girls’ night. I’m pretty sure there was flirting and dancing. But with whom? All I can remember is the heat of bodies pressing in on me, and that I liked the feeling. Does Doug need to know how I acted? If I don’t tell him, will one of the neighbors? I wouldn’t blame him for feeling hurt. He hasn’t seen that side of me in a long time. “I have another surprise for you,” he says. “I’m going to build the kitchen cart tonight.” “Thank you. That means a lot to me.” I take Sadie, and he starts in on his maki. He doesn’t look up as he says, “What do you think about my going out to a sports bar on Main tonight to watch the game with all the guys? After I’ve finished the cart.” So the cart is just a ploy so he can go watch the game. Not that I would have stopped him from going, even without the cart. Doesn’t he know me better than that? “Which guys?” I ask.”
― Ellie Monago, Neighborly

“Anxiety craves a certainty it’ll never get, Dr. Morrison once told me.”
― Ellie Monago, Neighborly

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― Ellie Monago, Neighborly

“I was always aggrandizing others, thinking their time was more valuable, their desires and preferences worthier of satisfaction and their feelings more important.”
― Ellie Monago, Confidential

“Sadie’s cries are desperately plaintive. She needs her mommy, pathetically so. I needed my mommy just that way, and she let me down. I remember my mother’s emotional absence, the vacuum where a person should have been, the shell; I don’t recall an angry presence. I didn’t even register that much. I had no molecular influence on my mother.”
― Ellie Monago, Neighborly