Elen Chase > Quotes

“​ "This place is fun, Downtown is fun!" I said, looking at the blurred lights of the lamps on the street. "No wonder you left me for this… I wouldn't be surprised if a ghost came out." I closed my fist, trying to catch the lights. "Now I get it, Dan! You're a ghost!"
​ "Am I?" he talked to me in an accommodating way, like anyone would do with a friend too drunk to think clearly.
​ "Yes! There's even two of you now."
​ "Of course, that would be the only possible reason." We reached the parking lot.
​ "Say Dan, have you come back to help me with Shallie? But if you're a ghost, can you just call her for me?" I grabbed his arm. "Can you? Can you bring her to me?" Suddenly all the fake happiness I was feeling before left me in a deep, black desperation. Dan's expression changed too, and got darker.
​ "I'm not a ghost, Drew," he said, calmly, securing the helmet under my chin. "I'm sorry," he added.”
― Elen Chase, Back in the Rain

“But sometimes I wonder if blaming it all on fate isn’t only an excuse. Maybe we say, ‘it was destiny,’ because we’re afraid to admit that we gave up.”
― Elen Chase, When we were sea and stars

“Killing somebody is not so strange here. Whether it is with poison, drugs or a gunshot, every person you meet is a potential murderer or an accomplice. I’m no different. I’ve worked for them for years. I had a goal and threw away any morale to get what I wanted. This world is cruel, Drew. I’d like to believe it's just and fair, and the bad guys are the exception, but it's only a petty lie. People won't be good to you just because you're good to them. And if you want something, you have to be ready to give up something else. You have to be determined. Determined enough to live sacrificing ideals, pity, hope. I understand you cannot accept it. Deep down I’m happy you don't. Because the world you're looking at, despite everything you went through, is still clean. You still believe in justice. You're not like me. My world is dirty. I hate to disappoint you, but the truth is that your Shallie died because of people… like me.”
― Elen Chase, Back in the Rain

“For once, the rumors made me into the “victim,” when they could have easily made me into the “whore.” I wondered what makes people decide whether you’re one or the other. Either way, nobody really wants to know the truth.”
― Elen Chase, When we were sea and stars

“He was way stronger than me. All I could do, for seven years, was run away from the thought that my sister died. There were times I wished I could forget the both of them. I tried to lock them away somewhere in my mind and live normally, ignoring the fact that half of my heart was gone. I was trying to kill what he was trying to keep alive.”
― Elen Chase, Back in the Rain

“I loved him. I loved him in a clumsy, ridiculous way, but that was unmistakably love; a feeling I had craved for so long, I’d almost lost hope. It made perfect sense that it was James who gifted it to me.”
― Elen Chase, When we were sea and stars

“One day you look at the world with eyes full of wonder, then suddenly you lose yourself in your thoughts, and I… I find myself wishing you would find your way back through me.”
― Elen Chase, When we were sea and stars

“​ Why does it hurt so much? Even though you're here. Even though we're close like we've never been before. Why are you still suffering so much, when I am here with you? Why can't I fill the hole we have in our hearts? We will never be whole again, will we? Because we didn't know that we were whole only when we were together. We found out now, now that we will never be together again.”
― Elen Chase, Back in the Rain

“I never understood jealousy, and I have no idea how some people find it attractive; denying freedom to the person you are supposed to love doesn’t really make sense, does it?”
― Elen Chase, When we were sea and stars

“James looked at me with glossy eyes and parted lips, and I just knew I’d die if I didn’t kiss him now. I tried to fight it, I tried to think, analyze and rationalize, but I concluded that all the facts and words and promises in the world didn’t mean shit and all that ever mattered was sharing this, right now, with him.”
― Elen Chase, When we were sea and stars

“She’s just another cousin. Prepare yourself because you’re going to hear this a lot. Everybody here is somebody’s cousin.”
― Elen Chase, When we were sea and stars

“It’s not a matter of liking or disliking, it’s a matter of manners.”
― Elen Chase, When we were sea and stars

“I chased him like a madman, without knowing what I was doing, because I just needed to be with him... I needed him so desperately to see beyond my bullshit; to see what I truly was. And he saw me. He saw through my lies, the unspoken truths and my doubts. Despite everything, he chose me, too, and he showed me his wounds, and they hurt as if they were my own.”
― Elen Chase, When we were sea and stars

“Roberto didn’t say a word, but our fingers intertwined. He held my hand tightly and I almost cried as I realized that was the most intimate gesture I had ever shared with another person in my whole life.”
― Elen Chase, When we were sea and stars