Mason Deaver > Quotes

“I don't know whether to cry or scream or do both. It feels like I've done more than enough of both. And it feels like I haven't done enough.

And at some point, I know I'm going to have to crawl out of this bed and pick up the pieces but right now, it can be just me. Just me, these four walls, and this bed.

The universe doesn't have to exist outside this bedroom, and that's perfectly okay.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Bodies are fucking weird, especially when it feels like you don't belong in your own.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Whatever happens”—his grip tightens a little—“I wish you all the best, Benjamin De Backer.” He says it with a smile. “You deserve it.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Labels can help people find common ground, can help them connect, with themselves and other people".”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Love at first anxiety attack”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“I've been mentally preparing myself to come out all over again, but I've been doing that for a while now. That was one of the things I realized early. If you're queer, your life has the potential to become one long coming-out moment. If I ever want to be called the right pronouns, I'll have to correct people and put myself out there first and who knows what could happen.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“You always point out the problems with the paintings or the drawings. But what about the things you got right?"
"What about them?"
"Don't they mean something?”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Don’t ignore the problems,” he says. “Learn from them. But also, don’t knock what you get right. Every success deserves a celebration.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“I wish you all the best, Benjamin De Backer.” They aren’t the same words, but I know exactly what he means. “I love you too.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“The more I stare at my body, the more I hate it. It's the same feelings I had before I realized I'm nonbinary. Things just aren't where they're supposed to be, and I feel like I'm larger and smaller than myself at the same time. Like nothing adds up.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“[...] when you owe someone your life, can you really call them anything but your best friend?”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Be sad, hell, sit in bed all weekend and just watch Netflix. I’ve had those times too. But don’t stop living your life for them.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“I didn't want to die. Not really. What I wanted was to disappear. To blink out of existence, to be forgotten by everyone who ever knew me. I didn't want to be here anymore, to have to think, to have to feel.”
― Mason Deaver, The Ghosts We Keep

“The world’s too loud sometimes.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Can’t spell ‘subtext’ without ‘butt sex.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“If you’re queer, your life has the potential to become one long coming-out moment. If I ever want to be called the right pronouns, I’ll have to correct people and put myself out there first and who knows what could happen.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Underneath this smooth and handsome exterior lies the soul of an isolated poet".”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“I’m just wondering what the point is.” “Well, that’s the real question, isn’t it?”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Such a contrast to the other non-binary people I’ve seen online. Their smooth, hairless, acne-less faces, their trimmed hair that always seems perfect. These things I could never be. Because no matter how hard I will it my body isn't how I want to see myself.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“That's not what's going to happen. Why would you think I'd want to lose you like that?”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“I can’t wear the clothes I want to wear, or that I think look good, but shouldn’t I at least be able to paint my goddamned fingernails?”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“I don’t really know what I want, but it isn't this body. It’s almost like it knows, with the way it taunts me.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Like who you’re attracted to and who you are as a person are two totally different things. It’s hard to explain not being confident in your own body. It just feels wrong, but only you seem to really know how and why it feels that way.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“It’s like Thomas, Mrs. Williams, and Mrs. Kurtz got together to see what would lead to the quickest emotional breakdown from me. Joke’s on them, because I already know it won’t take much.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“Bodies are fucking weird, especially when it feels like you don’t belong in your own.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“He was a ghost following me everywhere I went, even when I didn't want him there.”
― Mason Deaver, The Ghosts We Keep

“But I don't think he realizes how difficult it can be to forget all the mistakes when I know they're my fault. When I know I should've caught them.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best

“But knowing what you have to do and actually doing what you need to are two different things, two separate worlds.”
― Mason Deaver, The Ghosts We Keep

“Fingers finding lost bodies-
floating along the surface, despaired drowned, dead.
Keeping secrets lost on pale blue lips-
For this is the place the dead things go-
This is the home of the ghosts we keep.”
― Mason Deaver, The Ghosts We Keep

“Boys aren’t supposed to wear dresses. Even if I’m not a boy, even if clothing shouldn’t be gendered. Whenever anyone looks at me, that’s all they’ll see.”
― Mason Deaver, I Wish You All the Best