Avi Silver > Quotes

“Connecting with people had always felt a little like losing opacity, like offering up parts of me that even I couldn't see.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“I didn't feel born into the wrong body, I felt displaced in time and space. And since the rest of the world seemed to think I was perfectly suited to being a woman, I felt displaced from myself by association.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“The slope of her eyeliner curved in a cruel arch as her expression shifted from manufactured warmth to unfiltered disdain. I could have loved her for the honesty in that look.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“What are you looking at? What are you looking at? What are you looking at. The words pressed harder, squirming until the lightboard in my chest went dark. I walked toward the South Side stop, feeling the ugly desire to be shouted at one more time, to figure out what it was everyone was seeing when they looked at me.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“They looked that each other, the mysteries flowing between them like cosmic ley lines, and I felt nothing.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“They listened to me, and looked right at my eyes, and spent money because they were afraid their children didn't know anyone loved them”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“The concept of gender euphoria was my lodestar, a promise that being trans wasn't just about what felt wrong, but also what felt right.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“I didn't want to hate women. I just didn't know how to be one.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“I wondered if this was part of settling into adulthood, shedding the impulse to hate who we are. It was such a bewildering thing; most kids walked their world with full confidence in themselves, proudly announcing that everyone else had better get used to it. How did that get so eroded over the years? Why did we all end up having to learn how to be children again?”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“For someone who had struggled against boundaries my whole life, I sure fell apart without structure.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“...It was still frightening for her. What halfway decent parent doesn't have a private burst of panic at the sight of their kid visibly deteriorating under the weight of existence?”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“Once more I caught a glimpse of the mark on his cheek, where his she stamp would have been if he were a woman. But men didn’t wear stamps— they were just allowed to Be.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“The whole of him, contained, constrained by the limits of her dilating pupil.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“That was what encouraged me to explain later that I wasn't looking for a serious relationship. It was easier for me to share my body, harder for me to share my life.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities

“I touched my chest, feeling the compression of the binder Theseus had lent me, trying to determine if it made me feel nonbinary or like a dog in a thundervest.”
― Avi Silver, Pluralities