Andrew Joseph White > Quotes

“God is an absent parent who demands loyalty despite never being around...”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“Do you believe in God?

I do, please stop, there's so much blood”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“We are the same species. We're all human. It's not that people cannot understand me; it's simply that most of them don't want to”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“Being transgender is who you are, and the pain is what the outside does to you. The pain is what happens when you and the world go at each other's throats.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“I'm done begging for a scrap of respect-I am done with those who enact suffering, and I am done with the sons of bitches who stand back and let it happen.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“I want to take myself apart into something else, and if I cannot do that, I want to destroy every part of it that could ever be used against me.”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“dysphoria had to wrap its hands around my neck and hold me down, baptism in drowning, before I faced the fact that living as a girl would kill me long before the Angels did.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“Am I in love with her already? Perhaps. Or maybe I’m just confusing love with comfort, and I’m okay with that. Is there any difference between love and a safe harbor from a storm? Should there be? There are a lot of different kinds of love, and though I may not be able to tell them apart from each other, I appreciate all of them the same.”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“I won't be okay, but I will be better”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“I think it hits us all at the same time that maybe we'll live long enough to grow up.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“What's going on in my head? What do I believe? How much of it is me, and how much of it was put there?
I don't know.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“I want to peel off all my skin, if only so I could be anything other than a naked body, something horrifying instead of vulnerable. Nobody looks at a pig corpse and thinks it could be made beautiful.”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“I think the entire world depends on people pretending they don’t know they’re doing terrible things.”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“Why is it that when they hide their faces, men become monsters instead of angels?”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“I have no sense of myself anymore besides the fact that I am not what I once was. I'm too tired to see my body from the eyes of others, in the terrible way trans-ness demands--always existing both inside and outside myself, judging as an observer. Now, I am a pile of flesh on the floor, everything hurts, and I do not give a shit.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“Hell has followed us onto Earth, and I am the monster that has brought it forth.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“When something terrible happens—or at least, when you learn about it—it feels like it should affect the entire world. It feels like something should change. But it doesn’t.”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“It’s amazing how locking down one key demographic, white people in rich countries, means you can get your claws into the world so tightly, you can tear it all to pieces around you.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“It should be noted that I do not define my manhood through my love of women. There are lots of men who do so: their hunger to dominate feminine things, their power over their wives and daughters, are the building blocks of their maleness. That is not me. Yes, I could love a man if I ever found one who accepts me as I am, and I’ve dreamed of being so lucky—but I love women too. I love women as men are expected to, but the way only one who has ever experienced womanhood can.”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“The first thing Dad told me—when Mom said I’d see the Lord’s plan for my womanhood eventually, that she’d carve it into me if she had to—he told me I’m a man, and I fought for it, and nobody can take that from me.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“Theo snorts. “How did I manage to land a straight guy?” “How dare you imply I’m heterosexual. I am disgusted and appalled.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“He'd spent so long memorizing the rules of interacting with people that he could twist them to his advantage. There are scripts people don't even realize they follow, and if you fit that script, or tweak it just enough to throw them off, they drop their guard.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“I'd burn anything down if you so much asked”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“I've taken what they've given me and turned it into a mockery of them. I will turn it into what destroys them.
If they want me to be a monster one step closer to God, that's fine.
In what world was their God ever a benevolent one?”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“The places where you hurry are harsh: I pray that you run more gently”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“You're not a coward for wanting to live”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“To separate how you are seen from who you are sometimes feels nigh impossible.”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“My flesh is a single, perfect, God-given fig meant to feed all the hungry. I am their savior in Angel whites and skin peeling off the bone.”
― Andrew Joseph White, Hell Followed With Us

“It is a mind that experiences the world too much. It is a mind that at once experiences everything in its smallest details, but without sensing the deeper meaning the rest of the world seems to inherently understand. It is a mind that sees the patterns and clicking, ticking systems all around us, but crumbles as soon as something falls out of place. It is a mind that operates, it seems, in a mirror version of the world, where the same actions and reactions are experienced so differently it’s like we are not even the same species.”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth

“When the dead men come, we are waiting. We have been waiting so long.

They must have convinced themselves they would never rot in the same dirt we do.”
― Andrew Joseph White, The Spirit Bares Its Teeth