Jillian Medoff > Quotes

“My only relief is to sleep. When I'm sleeping, I'm not sad, I'm not angry, I'm not lonely, I'm nothing.”
― Jillian Medoff, Hunger Point

“Sometimes you have to say, 'Today's just not my day.”
― Jillian Medoff, Hunger Point

“It's my brain," she says softly. "It's eating me alive.”
― Jillian Medoff, Hunger Point

“And the truth is, sometimes my sisters and I do get jealous, and sometimes we do say things to-and about-one another that are thoughtless and rude. We don't meant them, though. It's just whenever we're together, we slip into our old familiar roles.”
― Jillian Medoff, I Couldn't Love You More

“When it comes to religion, no one knows anything, especially those who claim to know best.”
― Jillian Medoff, I Couldn't Love You More

“There’s this place deep inside myself that I’m trying to reach. A calm, quiet place where I don’t exist as a girl with a body that grows too big. A place where I can finally sleep. I’m trying to reach that place, every day I try, and I know there will be a point when I’ll be able to slip through. I know the point, I’ve almost been there, the point when I’m so hungry, I can’t feel it, the point of numbness, of suspension, the window of time when it’s okay to say yes, to let go, to fly. That’s the point I work toward, my own personal hunger point; a point when I feel everything and nothing at all. When all it takes is one more step and I’ll be safe.”
― Jillian Medoff, Hunger Point

“My point is, you can have everything and still not have enough.”
― Jillian Medoff, When We Were Bright And Beautiful

“They ask me what I think of food. I tell them I don’t know, but I do. I know everything about it. I feel like I’m at war. It’s all about the battle. I am always aware of what I am doing. I watch myself watch the plate, I watch my hand lift my fork. I watch the mouth that opens like a cunt, the fork that slides in like a dick. That fucks me every time I swallow. I watch every second. I savor it all. The object, however, is to not let them know that you know this. Because if they do, they will take it away. Not the food, of course, but the knowing. Your absolute certainty that you will win. That’s the real war, not the food, but the fuck and the desire of that fuck that I can control and I can deny. That I can destroy. You destroy the hunger, you destroy the desire, you destroy the need, you destroy the girl. The Me. And once I’m gone, what’s left to fuck?”
― Jillian Medoff, Hunger Point

“There's this place deep inside myself that I'm trying to reach. A calm, quiet place where I don't exist as a girl with a body that grows too big. A place where I can finally sleep. I'm trying to reach that place, every day I try, and I know there will be a point when I'll be able to slip through. I know the point, I've almost been there, the point when I'm so hungry I can't feel it, the point of numbness, of suspension, the window of time when it's okay to say yes, to let go, to fly. That's the point I work toward, my own personal hunger point; a point when I feel everything and nothing at all. When all it takes is one more step and I'll be safe.”
― Jillian Medoff, Hunger Point

“Lawrence’s genius is exploiting the space between fact-based truth and news-based reality, and he created successful campaigns for contenders in local races before advancing to state and national elections.”
― Jillian Medoff, When We Were Bright and Beautiful

“Having no choices, no agency, was a killer, but having too many was equally crippling.”
― Jillian Medoff, This Could Hurt

“Which is the funny thing about families; no matter how cake you have someone will always feel starved.”
― Jillian Medoff, When We Were Bright And Beautiful

“No one is all good or all bad. You can love your father because he clothed and fed you, but you can hate him because he’s a man and tragically flawed.”
― Jillian Medoff, When We Were Bright and Beautiful

“Opposing ideas can be simultaneously true; one reinforces the other even as they’re both canceled out.”
― Jillian Medoff, When We Were Bright and Beautiful

“Kenny’s career trajectory had been a frenetic scramble, with personality conflicts, professional counseling, and extended periods of unemployment along the way. At Wharton, his devotion to studying was legendary. If a subject intrigued him, he’d work seventy-two hours at a clip, with a laser focus that could bend the world’s edges. School was a sanctuary where he chased ideas like rabbits down into whatever random, circuitous holes they traveled. In retrospect, he should’ve stayed for his PhD and become an academic, worn open-collared shirts, comfortable shoes. Instead, he listened to Janine and went high-ticket corporate, only to discover that he wasn’t cut out for the real world. Out here, smart people were made to repeat the same simple tasks over and over until all their intelligence drained out. Out here, Kenny couldn’t get traction. His attention wandered, his already poor listening skills deteriorated. He lost track of time. Missed deadlines.”
― Jillian Medoff, This Could Hurt

“You can’t shroud yourself in self-pity to avoid accountability. I will”
― Jillian Medoff, When We Were Bright and Beautiful

“Which is the funny thing about families; no matter how much cake you have, someone will always feel starved.”
― Jillian Medoff, When We Were Bright And Beautiful