Sarah Ockler > Quotes

“Weeping is not the same thing as crying. It takes your whole body to weep, and when it's over, you feel like you don't have any bones left to hold you up.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“Every morning, I wake up and forget just for a second that it happened. But once my eyes open, it buries me like a landslide of sharp, sad rocks. Once my eyes open, I'm heavy, like there's to much gravity on my heart.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“I was, but then I realized that I was holding on to something that didn't exist anymore. That the person I missed didn't exist anymore. People change. The things we like and dislike change. And we can wish they couldn't all day long but that never works.”
― Sarah Ockler, Fixing Delilah

“Would 'sorry' have made any difference? Does it ever? It's just a word. One word against a thousand actions.”
― Sarah Ockler, Bittersweet

“In your entire life, you can probably count your true friends on one hand. Maybe even on one finger. Those are the friends you need to cherish, and I wouldn't trade one of them for a hundred of the other kind. I'd rather be completely alone than with a bunch of people who aren't real. People who are just passing time.”
― Sarah Ockler, Fixing Delilah

“Nothing ever really goes away--it just changes into something else. Something beautiful.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“Every story is part of a whole, entire life, you know? Happy and sad and tragic and whatever, but an entire life. And books let you know them.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“Sometimes you gotta just take things for what they are and appreciate them, not try to label it or explain it. Explanations take the mystery out of it, you know?”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“When someone you love dies, people ask you how you're doing, but they don't really want to know. They seek affirmation that you're okay, that you appreciate their concern, that life goes on and so can they. Secretly they wonder when the statute of limitations on asking expires (its three months, by the way. Written or unwritten, that's about all the time it takes for people to forget the one thing that you never will).”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“I really don't even know you, and yet, in my life, you are forever entangled; to my history, inextricably bound.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“It takes forty muscles to frown, and only twelve to jam a cupcake in your mouth and get over it.”
― Sarah Ockler, Bittersweet

“Sometimes I think we all feel guilty for being happy, and as soon as we catch ourselves acting like everything is okay, someone remembers it's not.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“He loved to read. He loved words, the way they string together into sentences and stories. He wanted to study them, to know and create them, to share them with the world. ”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“We all long for what could have been.”
― Sarah Ockler, Fixing Delilah

“Sometimes I wonder if my whole life will pass by this way: me waiting in the shadows, waiting for something to happen. Waiting for someone else to make it happen. Something new or different or crazy and amazing. I‘ve been there for so long, letting everyone else figure it out for me, floating along without much direction or conscious thought. Reacting.”
― Sarah Ockler, Fixing Delilah

“I accept the hard reality that I maybe might possibly be just the slightest tiniest littlest bit kinda sorta interested in him.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“I'm fine, thanks for not asking.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“I understand how easy it would be to lose yourself in the heart of another. It‘s frightening. Exhilarating. An ocean with no lifeguard.”
― Sarah Ockler, Fixing Delilah

“But once in a while, you pick the right thing, the exact best thing. Every day, the moment you open your eyes and pull off your blankets, that's what you hope for. The sunshine on your face,warm enough to make you heart sing.”
― Sarah Ockler, Bittersweet

“Same people. Same hellos and goodbyes. Same beginnings and endings. Same befores and afters.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“Don't move, Anna Reiley. Right now, everything is perfect.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“Sweetheart, when you say Matt's name, you have the same look in your eyes that he'd get whenever he'd say yours.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“I just swallow hard.
Nod and smile.
One foot in front of the other.
I'm fine, thanks for not asking.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“When I kissed Sam, I was so scared of erasing Matt. But now I know that I could never erase him. He'll always be a part of me - just in a different way. Like Sam, making smoothies on the beach two thousand miles away. Like Frankie, my voodoo magic butterfly finding her way back home in the dark. Like the stars, fading with the halo of the vanishing moon. Like the ocean, falling and whispering against the shore. Nothing ever really goes away - it just changes into something else. Something beautiful. ”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“When it happens, you’re totally unprepared, fragmented and lost, looking for the hidden meaning in every little thing. I’ve replayed the events of that day a hundred thousand times, looking for clues. An alternate ending. The Butterfly effect.

If I could find the butterfly that flapped its wings before we got into the car that day, I would crush it.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“It‘s complicated. I think when bad things happen—whether someone dies or people argue or split up—you get to a point where it‘s just too hard to go back. There‘s so much lost. So many versions of the truth. So many versions of how things might‘ve turned out differently. We all long for what could have been. For some people, it‘s just easier to move forward and try to forget.”
― Sarah Ockler, Fixing Delilah

“The only excuse I can think of is the truth – she’s broken. Until someone can figure out how to fix her, what else can she do?”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“Like the stars, fading with the halo of the vanishing moon. Like the ocean, falling and whispering against the shore. Nothing ever really goes away - it just changes into something else. Something beautiful.”
― Sarah Ockler, Twenty Boy Summer

“I wonder how much we don‘t see. How much of our lives we witness and accept as truth when the rest of the iceberg—the heaviest, bulkiest part—is buried and invisible.”
― Sarah Ockler, Fixing Delilah

“I remember the feeling even now; an inescapable stickines of each other like magnets on the fridge. It's funny how someone can be such an integral part of your life, like you laugh at the same jokes and eat your ice cream cones the same way and share your toys and dreams and everything but your heartbeats, and then one day - nothing. You share nothing. It's like none of it ever happened.”
― Sarah Ockler, Fixing Delilah