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“A promise,” Remus said, softly, “That we’ll be together. If that’s—something you want.”

“Moony,” Sirius felt himself smiling, even as tears pricked his eyes, “That’s all I want.”

Remus released a breath; the joy glowed on his face, blindingly bright. Yet Sirius didn’t think he could look away, even if he wanted to.

“You promise?” He breathed, bringing a hand up to cradle Sirius’s face, thumb stroking across his jaw. Sirius leaned into the touch.

“I promise,” he said.”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective

“I wouldn't have given up on you, if the positions had been switched. I would have never loved again. You already had it - it was already yours, all the love I ever had to give.”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective

“They lay together, side by side. Their hearts beat. The moon shone. The stars glittered. Sirius held a love like a universe, beautiful and dark and bright, tucked impossibly in the space behind his ribs. He looked up, into the eyes of the man who had placed it there, and saw the same infinity reflected back—despite everything. Because of everything.

For a moment, forever stretched between them, threaded into blood and breath and bone.

Eventually, Sirius closed his eyes. He fell asleep to the sound of Moony’s heart, the steady beat of it wrapped in his hand.

And when he slept, he dreamed.”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective

“Who could be expected to love a black hole, where there had once been a star?”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective

“After all, there wee so many stars in the sky—it wasn't Remus's fault there was only one moon.”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective

“Because trying not to love him was like trying to hold his breath - eventually, Sirius's lungs would start burning, body screaming for air, and he would open his mouth, and it would all flood back in.”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective - Volume Two: Years 5-6

“Nothing on this earth could take me from you, do you understand?” He was touching Remus’s face, catching the tears with his thumbs, “Not the fighting, not this war—if I died, I think I’d love you even then. Don’t you understand? I can’t leave you, not if I tried, not if I wanted to.”
“You can’t know that—”
“I can. Remus, when I go, it’s going to be with you at my side. I promise you.” He kissed the tears on Moony’s cheeks, “I promise.” He caught his hand; he kissed the scars on his knuckles, “I promise.” He kissed his temple, his shoulder, his throat. “I promise, Moony. I promise.”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective

“Mary deserved better. Sirius knew that. She was so vibrant, so bright—she was a sun, the centre of her own solar system. She deserved adoration, devotion, someone who could faithfully, gratefully orbit, who would fully appreciate her warmth and light.

But Sirius didn't want the sun. At night, he dreamt of the moon.”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective

“Can you see this, Prongs? Sirius found himself asking, silently, Look at him fly—just like you.”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective - Volume One: Years 1-4

“Now, Sirius was no longer the boy from those fantasies. He was no longer young, and beautiful, and full of life. He was no longer the person Moony had fallen in love with - though he remembered that person, as if from far away. He remembered being loud, and vibrant, and reckless. He remembered the love he'd held for mischief, and for his friends; he remembered laughing with his head thrown back, sweeping his hair behind one ear, smirking with that devilish confidence that he'd always projected.
But that boy felt more like a dream than anything else. And Sirius couldn't bear the thought of going to Moony now, as he was, and watching the fantasy wither before his eyes. Who could be expected to love a black hole, where there had once been a star?”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective - Volume Four: 'Til The End

“«Never under the covers, of course—it wasn’t like they were queer.»”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective

“My heartbeat,” Sirius said, feeling suddenly shy, “And I can feel yours.” The ring on his hand was warm, thumping gently, like a faint, second pulse.”
― Rollercoasterwords, All the Young Dudes: Sirius's Perspective