Allison Van Wheeler > Quotes

“If this continues much longer, I don't know how I will cope. Stuck in this hospital room, I can't help but sink into a pit of helplessness and frustration. The constant beeping of the machines and the sterile smell of the room is starting to get to me. I long to be outside, to feel the sun on my skin, to breathe in the fresh air, but that's a luxury I can't afford at the moment,”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“We haven't talked about my health at all. It's a nice change. Everyone else asks a billion questions. Adults can be so nosey”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“Having a friend who is chronically ill is a rollercoaster of emotions. One moment, you're having a great time together, laughing, and making memories. But then you remember they're sick, and the dark clouds move in, hanging over everything. It's hard to see the light through the darkness those fictitious clouds bring. You worry about them constantly and their pain becomes your pain. Sometimes it's hard to know what to say or how to help. But no matter what you stick by their side and do whatever you can to support them. Because at the end of the day, they're your friend, and you love them”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“My body will crumble later, but I need to do this for myself.”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“I've been in denial for a long time. I'm sick, and it sucks.”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“It feels like I'm constantly drowning in my own body, Archie. Every breath is a struggle, every movement feels like a battle. Sometimes, it feels like there's no escape. Like I'm trapped in this fragile vessel that's slowly falling apart.”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“It's been months. How can they still not know? How much more blood will they need? Why can't this just be over already?”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“I know it's scary to think about the worst-case scenarios, but we can't let fear take over. We have to believe that everything will work out for the best.”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“Laughed to ease the pain, but unfortunately, i'm not actually joking”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“I guess I use humor to mask my emotions.”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“And the pain ...it's like nothing I've ever experienced before. It's a constant ache, a gnawing sensation that never goes away. Sometimes it's so intense that I can barely think or speak”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“But worst of all is the uncertainty. Not knowing what's going to happen, not knowing if I'll ever be the same again.I t's like living in a perpetual state of fear and anxiety, never knowing if this will be the moment when everything falls apart.”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“We spend all of our time torturing each other because we hate ourselves.”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“It's finally hitting me. I am sick. Everything I have ever dreamed of is over. My life is over”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“I've been so concerned with the so-called downfall of my life that I haven't even paid attention to anyone else”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“Everyone stares at her. It's hard to ignore the looks people give when we're out together. Their pitiful stares chill me as we pass by, their eyes lingering on El in her wheelchair. It makes me angry sometimes, but I have to keep it under control. They don't understand what she's going through; they don't mean any harm.”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“I've never liked the hospital. I don't know anyone who does”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope

“It's challenging to deal with her hysteria while I'm already dealing with my own health issues”
― Allison Van Wheeler, Our Last Hope