Andrea Portes > Quotes

“It's one of those dumb days where nothing's really wrong but nothing's really right either and the sky can't even choose to be white or gray.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“Ceaseless.
Almost too much for this small frame.
You make me part of the sky.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“I look like vanilla pudding so nobody knows that on the inside I am spider soup.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“I don't know how to act around anybody.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“But if I can keep my mind on these pages I don't have to care. I can make this all just go away. Poof. I can stay in this book and then this book gets to be real and everything else gets to be fake and who cares anyway.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“I mean if there was any justice in the world you wouldn't even have to go to school during your period. You'd just stay home for five days and eat chocolate and cry.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“You could waste your whole life worrying, you know that?”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“You get one chance.

You get to do this and that and you don't even know when it goes from swirling forward and around and around in circles to just a plain cold stop and nothing more. Can you believe it? All this time I've spent weighing this and weighing that, worrying about this and worrying about that, living back then and living forward, caring about so-and-so, too, but never living here, here, this moment here. Never even acknowledging that this moment even exists, and it hits me like a live volt through the chest.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“We tried to be all of the things ... we are not.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“Just so you know. I fucking loved you. I fucking loved the daylights out of you.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“Okay, listen, I don't know what dumb lines you are used to giving girls so they fall all over you but I just want you to know that I wasn't born yesterday so I am gonna go now and leave you to whatever dumb idiot girl is gonna buy that line.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“We're both whisper-screaming at each other. All I can think is this is the worst possible way to break up with somebody.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“But somewhere in America, between the freeways and the Food-4-Less, between the filling stations and the 5-o-'clock news, behind the blue blinking light coming off the TV, there is a space, an empty space, between us, around us, inside us, that inevitable, desperate, begs to be filled up. And nothing, not shame, not God, not a new microwave, not a wide-screen TV or that new diet with grapefruits, can ever, ever fill it.
Underneath all that white noise there's a lack.”
― Andrea Portes, Hick

“And when I have that feeling, that feeling like I need a handout, desperate, I want to pull my skin off and turn into dust.I want to throw myself back to the angels and tell them to start over,start over without me cause you put the screws in loose, you put the hinges in wrong.”
― Andrea Portes, Hick

“We tried to be less self-involved. We tried to look up from our dumb obsessions and notice other people. We tried to be open, for once. We tried not to be just another vaguely racist family. We tried to be enlightened. We tried to be good.
We tried to be all of the things . . . we are not.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“This moment here.
This is all you get.
Before you are part of the sky.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“Let's just call it like it is, no need to pretty it up. I care what other people think of me. I'm not Jesus Christ. I'm just a girl in the world.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“You know why you keep losing, 'cause, guess what, you're a fucking loser.”
― Andrea Portes, Hick

“You get one chance.
You get to do this thing one time and you don’t even know when it goes from swirling forward and around and around in circles to just a plain cold stop and nothing more. Can you believe it? All this time I’ve spent weighing this and weighing that, worrying about this and worrying about that, living back then and living forward, caring about what so-and-so thinks and about so-and-so, too, but never living here, here, this moment here. Never even acknowledging that this moment even exists, and it hits me, like a live volt through the chest.
This moment here.
This is all you get.
Before you are part of the sky”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“I know a lot of people think that whole God thing is a joke but I just get a feeling he's up there somewhere.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“Logan is a sideways, brilliant, honest guy who does the coolest stuff ever, and everybody hates, but who I am basically in love with.
But Logan is damaged, broken. And, let’s not sugarcoat it, that ain’t gonna change.
Even though it isn’t his fault, even though his shitty father caused it, even though it’s not fair . . . that kinda thing cuts deep. That kinda thing sticks”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“Never judge a man until you walk a mile in his shoes. That way, you're a mile away and you've got his shoes.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“Out west everything has its own space. Every little ramshackle cabin, shack, hut sits perched atop its own little piece of destiny with room to breathe, room to live, room to die. You'll see them, the dead ones, sitting by the side of the road like some faded gray and rotting mystery, thinking about the good ol days before trains and cars and wanting more.”
― Andrea Portes, Hick

“I bet she thought she was getting into a fight with a vanilla wafer on roller skates but little did she know she was getting into a fight with a spider sandwich.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“I look out past the corn and the wheat and wonder how many sets of bones are buried, unspoken, keeping their stories to themselves in the dirt. I wonder if they know the sky is bright blue today and the air smells sweet. I wonder if they still listen in.”
― Andrea Portes, Hick

“My age makes him nervous and shamey, cause his eyes keep heading southwards and then back up, guilty. I can tell I can make his eyes swirl and that's just about all I want to do.”
― Andrea Portes, Hick

“I mean, if there was any justice in the world you wouldn’t even have to go to school during your period.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“You look cute in your little uniform." [Jared]

Did he read my mind or something?

"Yeah? You don't think I look like an Easter egg?"

"No. I think you look like I should be asking you to marry me."

CRASH!”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“I know they say that’s the way the cookie crumbles and all. But you can’t help but wonder why there’s any cookie-crumbling going on in the first place.”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit

“I can't help but wonder...if it's such a big deal for a middle-aged white guy to feel important...What happens when he doesn't?”
― Andrea Portes, Anatomy of a Misfit