Katelyn Saul > Quotes

“I want to know that there was nothing I could have done to stop you from hurting me. All I did was exist.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns

“Moving on felt like burying my past self all over again and swearing to never visit her grave, even if she just wanted flowers. I couldn't bring myself to abandon her entirely.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns

“Being compared to other girls in that way didn’t make me feel “mature” or “special,” as he had likely intended it to. It made me feel like a demon disguised as a child. I listened as he claimed that I was the only young girl he had ever wanted to ruin, and at once, I thought it was my fault for existing in front of him; like something about me made him a monster. The words “You’re different” didn’t sound like a compliment at all. It sounded like other girls deserved to be protected, and I didn’t.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns

“She called it abuse, but I didn't feel like a victim. I felt like a disaster.”
― Katelyn Saul , How Roses Grow Thorns

“Suddenly, aging felt like dying, as I realized that once my youth vanished, so would my value. I thought that perhaps girls like me weren't meant to live long enough to face that reality.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns

“Each syllable escaped his tongue like a dagger aimed at my skin; carving a story into my flesh and hoping that the truth would bleed out of me before I found the courage to tell it.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns

“Suddenly, I was seventeen again, and I was falling apart right before him, just as I had done so shamelessly back then. Meanwhile, he was watching me break down in front of him, utterly horrified; like he had forgotten that killing someone meant he would have to watch them die.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns

“Neither of my parents had even noticed that I was not home, nor did they bother to question my daily activities at all. How strange it was that I used to be grateful for that sort of thing.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns

“His touch lingered upon my skin like words carved into stone. I would later slice myself in half just to make my body mine again.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns

“If you buried a girl, a woman would haunt you.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns

“Maybe for some people, sharing their story was a way of getting their abuser’s name out of their lungs; expelling it from their system entirely. For me, sharing my story would feel like carving his crimes into my skin and letting the world watch me bleed. I couldn’t bear the thought of people knowing me by my past, rather than my name.”
― Katelyn Saul , How Roses Grow Thorns

“A rose without thorns may be eaten by predators, but a rose with too many thorns will destroy itself before it even has the chance to grow.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns

“Perhaps it was possible to tame a fire, but nothing in this world could tame a man.”
― Katelyn Saul, How Roses Grow Thorns