L.J. Hayward > Quotes

“You're just a weaponist, Jack." Jack stifled a snicker.
"A weaponist?"
"Like a racist but against certain weapons."
"And you never met a weapon you didn't like."
"A couple actually, but that was more personality differences."
"Hah! No. You're just a weapon slut. There's a difference. I'm a weapon monogamist." He considered that, then added, "Well, maybe a very limited polygamist."
"You haven't returned my Desert Eagle," Blade noted dryly.
"It's lonely out here and I'm a man with needs.”
― L.J. Hayward, Where Death Meets the Devil

“Great,” I muttered. “Maybe we can go out on a date, fall in love, get married, have us a whole bunch of kids and die fucking horrible deaths”
― L.J. Hayward, Blood Work

“In that space between one beat and the next, all you are is potential. And that is where all the cool kids go to get their psychic powers.”
― L.J. Hayward, Blood Work

“When my world gets reset to zero, my starting post is blood. Specifically, the elements of it, the working compounds that make it what it is. Red cells, white cells, DNA, plasma full of proteins, enzymes, antibodies, minerals, electrolytes—all the things that when poked and prodded right tell you just about everything you want to know about a person. Fascinating stuff, and a little freaky, when you think about it. Blood was where I returned to after the accident that smashed my knee. It was where I went when I got out of prison. It was where I was when Mercy fell into my lap. Now it seemed, blood was my whole reason for being.”
― L.J. Hayward, Blood Work

“Luckily, I have ESP. Extra sensory presumption. It means I have this unbelievable talent for guessing and occasionally, I get it right.”
― L.J. Hayward, Demon Dei

“It is entirely possible to miss something you've never had." - Ethan Bane”
― L.J. Hayward

“Stay and I’ll kiss you on the mouth.” Ethan stalled mid-step. Without looking back, he said, “Let me change that from amusing and embarrassing to inappropriate and embarrassing.”
― L.J. Hayward, When the Devil Drives

“Dun dah,” Jack intoned. “Sorry, but that’s the wrong answer. The correct answer is . . .” He slung one arm around Ethan’s neck and pulled him in until they were chest to chest. “Blowjob. Come on, baby. Suck my brains out through my dick. That way, no headache!”
― L.J. Hayward, When the Devil Drives

“Fuck you, Blade, and the camel you rode in on.”
― L.J. Hayward, When Death Frees the Devil

“We all have knives." Anger bubbling up again, Jack shouted over him. "All of us! That's all any of us are. We're just a bunch of knives waiting to cut anyone who gets too close. Our insecurities. Our weaknesses. prejudices, arrogance. Everything that makes us who we are is a knife you can use to hurt someone else. God fucking knows I've hurt everyone around me. Family, friends, lovers. You. And they've hurt me. Stabbed me in the fucking heart.”
― L.J. Hayward

“Jack didn’t care if they lived in his Leichhardt apartment or the Bathurst penthouse, or a ramshackle stable in an abandoned homestead in the middle of the desert—so long as they were together and not facing an unknown enemy in an unknown stronghold.

But that would be the quickest way to lose him.”
― L.J. Hayward, When Death Frees the Devil

“Different couch, different man, but the same fear.”
― L.J. Hayward, When the Devil Drives

“You said it without anger or derision. When you looked at me and didn’t see an assassin or an enemy. You saw me and said ‘Ethan.”
― L.J. Hayward, When Death Frees the Devil

“His man didn’t need luck, but that didn’t mean Jack couldn’t hope it upon him.”
― L.J. Hayward, When Death Frees the Devil

“We all have knives." Anger bubbling up again, Jack shouted over him. "All of us! That's
all any of us are. We’re just a bunch of knives waiting to cut anyone who gets too close. Our insecurities. Our weaknesses, prejudices, arrogance. Everything that makes us who we are is a knife you can use to hurt someone else. God fucking knows I've hurt everyone around me. Family, friends, lovers. You. And they've hurt me. Stabbed me in the fucking heart." His voice broke on the last word and he realised how loud he'd been. Realised he had tears building. Taking a deep breath, he wiped them away with the back of one hand. But that's what being close to someone means. You accept the risk of being hurt, of causing the pain. And you learn together how not to hurt each other. That is why I want you with me. Because I know you don't want to hurt me. Or Tom. Or anyone else.”
― L.J. Hayward, Devil in the Details

“It was such an integral part of Jack, a voluntary scar he'd etched into his skin as a punishment, but one that had become a sign of survival.”
― L.J. Hayward, Why the Devil Stalks Death

“It was the lack of artifice between us. Jack knew me. Knew everything that mattered about me and to me. I had willingly removed the armour for Jack and in return, he didn’t blame me for stripping him of his.”
― L.J. Hayward, Why the Devil Stalks Death

“Consider this my resignation, Donna.”
― L.J. Hayward, When Death Frees the Devil

“Learning that they’d whipped him again, Jack had almost swum back to the island to make sure every last one of them was thoroughly dead.”
― L.J. Hayward, When Death Frees the Devil

“So I’m just going to come home from work one day and find you in my apartment? Maybe wearing a ribbon?”
― L.J. Hayward, Devil in the Details

“Christ. It never failed to do his head in, seeing Ethan want him, knowing it was only Jack who did this for him. It wasn’t an egotistical thing, but an oh-shit-don’t-let-me-screw-this-up-for-him thing. It was an amazing turn on and a scary honour, one Jack would do anything to uphold.”
― L.J. Hayward, When Death Frees the Devil

“Wounds healed and the scars they left were testaments of life.”
― L.J. Hayward, Why the Devil Stalks Death

“Coming wasn’t the most important outcome all of a sudden—the here and now with his Ethan was.”
― L.J. Hayward, When the Devil Drives

“Jack was such an idiot. The name Roy was a cover, but the man wasn’t. Rampaging Roy, race car driver, was as much a part of Ethan as Ethan Blade, paid killer. Just as Nishant was Jack’s way to smooth over society’s racial expectations. Nishant wasn’t separate from Jack, just another shield he used to protect himself.”
― L.J. Hayward, When the Devil Drives

“That woman freaks me out. She’s the whole reason I’m gay and I only met her yesterday.”
― L.J. Hayward, Blood Work

“I just didn't feel old enough to have children...I had my hands full with a vampire, thank you very much.”
― L.J. Hayward, Demon Dei

“I’m here for him and that’s all that matters.”
― L.J. Hayward, When the Devil Drives

“A strong hand landed on Jack’s shoulder and his laugh choked off in surprise. As the fingers squeezed a little tighter than comfortable, Jack looked up and met Ethan’s shuttered gaze. Even through the dark panes of his sunglasses, Jack could feel the steeliness of the man’s expression.”
― L.J. Hayward, When the Devil Drives

“After all, he’d already walked back into India for him.”
― L.J. Hayward, When Death Frees the Devil

“That haunting longing for the moon returned. Stronger, broader, flavoured with all the bone-deep desire only a nocturnal creature could feel for their sole light-giver, the lonely satellite that watched over them when the rest of the daylight world abandoned them.”
― L.J. Hayward, Here Be Dragons