Amanda Grace > Quotes

“But even when I stop crying, even when we fall asleep and I'm nestled in his arms, this will leave another scar. No one will see it. No one will know. But it will be there. And eventually all of the scars will have scars, and that's all I'll be--one big scar of a love gone wrong.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“I wanted to be his life preserver, the thing that would keep him afloat. Instead, he became my anchor. And I’m tired of drowning.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“What do you do when the one person you want comfort from the most is the one who caused your pain? How can I want so desperately for him to wrap me up in his arms but also want so much for him to leave me alone.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“It's not fair. It's not fair that he lets his rage take over, that he lets it rule him. I don't know why he has to let it rule him. I don't know why he has to be two people.

I don't know why he gets to be two people, and I only get to be me, the one who is here to take what he has to give, and who is here to pick pu the pieces afterward.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“People don't change because you want them to. They aren't clay, ready to be molded.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“Each piece of glass is another piece of myself I gave to him.

It's too bad I didn't keep any pieces for myself.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“It happened in pieces, tiny little turning points. I'll never figure out when it all turned, because it wasn't a single moments. It doesn't matter how many times I look back, how many times I try to figure it out. There is no before and after. Just a year of choices.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“These are the moments I fall deeper in love with him. When neither of us says anything, and we just … stare. There’s an understanding there that goes much deeper than words ever could. A connection so real I can’t speak, because words could never say the things I feel.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“People don't understand us. They don't understand me. They think it's so black and white, that he makes me miserable and that I should be with someone else and that I deserve something else.
But it's not black and white at all. It's gray. It's a never ending world of gray.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“I don't know when I stopped mattering to him, and I don't know how to undo it. I want it to be like it used to, when all he needed was me.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“It will never be true. Things have never been okay with us. Maybe if I'd paid attention, I would have seen that on our first few dates. Maybe I would have noticed his possessiveness; maybe I would have seen the way he wrapped around me, made me his entire world, his obsession. Maybe I would have felt the wight he placed on my shoulders, one tiny stone at a time.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“But even when I stop crying, even when we fall asleep and I'm nestled in his arms, this will leave another scar. No one will see it. No one will know. But it will be there. And eventually all the scars will have scars and that is all I will be, one big scar of a love gone wrong.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“Sometimes I think I spent forever waiting for you,' he says. 'My whole life, I've never had someone like you. Someone who doesn't have to be there, but is anyway. Someone who wants to just ... be with me because they want me. For me. Not because I'm your brother or your kid or anything, but because you choose me.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“My classmates surround me as I sit in this folding chair. They laugh and hug one another and talk about how much they will miss each other once they're gone. And all I can think is that I have been gone for a long time, but none of them miss me.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“I'm going back to bed. And when I wake up maybe that ugly girl will be gone.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“I don't know what happiness feels like anymore. I am dead to it.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“This isn't love. It's something broken and ugly. I wanted it so badly I didn't care what it looked like.”
― Amanda Grace

“These are the only moments that we have left. These precious seconds where the passion blots out everything else, and it is just us.
The rest is a war neither of us can ever win.
But, I already waved my white flag.
I have already surrendered.”
― Amanda Grace But I love Him

“You can't change the past. You can only change the future.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“Dinner and a movie? Forget that. I'd rather have a picnic and a waterfall.”
― Amanda Grace

“All I want to do is pretend nothing is wrong and avoid it all, for eternity, but I know I can't.”
― Amanda Grace, In Too Deep

“She was a good mom. She was everything I ever needed or wanted. And cruel reality stole her from me, and she became something else, and I became no one to her, because she can't see through her own tears long enough to realize how much it hurts me.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“I don’t know what happiness feels like anymore.
I am dead to it.”
― Amanda Grace, But I Love Him

“And just like that, the long, black tunnel has a light at the end, a shining beacon, and I feel a little less lost.”
― Amanda Grace, No One Needs to Know