Chevy Stevens > Quotes

“You can be as happy as you've ever been in your life, and shit is still going to happen. But it doesn't just happen. It knocks you sideways and crashes you into the ground, because you were stupid enough to believe in sunshine and roses.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I hate them for not being in pain like me, hate them for being able to enjoy themselves. Hate myself for feeling that way.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I'm in a weird-ass mood today, Doc. Wired up, mind all over the place, looking for answers, reasons something solid to cling to, something real, but just when I think I've got it figured out and neatly filed under fixed instead of fucked, turns out I'm still shattered, scattered, and battered. But you probably already knew that, didn't you?...You might not be able to help me. That makes me sad, but not for me. It makes me sad for you. It must be frustrating for a shrink to have a patient who's beyond fixing. That first shrink I saw when I got back to Clayton Falls told me no one is a lost cause, but I think that's bullshit. I think people can be so crushed, so broken, that they'll never be anything more than a fragment of a whole person. (129)”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“Time only counts when you have a purpose”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“There are all these books that say we create our own destiny and what we believe is what we manifest. You're supposed to walk around with this perpetual bubble over your head thinking happy thoughts and then everything is going to be sunshine and roses. Nope, sorry, don't think so. You can be as happy as you've ever been in your life, and shit is still going to happen. But it doesn't just happen. It knocks you sideways and crushes you into the ground, because you were stupid enough to believe in sunshine and roses. (99)”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“Sometimes we have to go through difficult times in life," he said. "But they're just a test, and if we stay strong, we're eventually rewarded.”
― Chevy Stevens

“It's impossible, I think, to save everyone, but if we help even one person in our lifetime, then we succeeded.”
― Chevy Stevens, Always Watching

“It's an old church and smells like a museum - in a good way, a survived-lots-of-shit-and-still-standing kind of way. Something about the stained-glass windows works for me too. If I were to get all deep on you, I could say the idea of all those broken pieces being made into something so damn pretty appeals to me. Good thing I'm not that profound. (54)”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“When we lose someone, we also grieve over all the things that will never be.”
― Chevy Stevens, Always Watching

“That first shrink I saw when I got back to Clayton Falls told me no one is a lost cause, but I think that’s bullshit. I think people can be so crushed, so broken, that they’ll never be anything more than a fragment of a whole person.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I think people can be so crushed, so broken, that they'll never be anything more than a fragment of a whole person.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“You’re supposed to walk around with this perpetual bubble over your head thinking happy thoughts and then everything is going to be sunshine and roses. Nope, sorry, don’t think so. You can be as happy as you’ve ever been in your life, and shit is still going to happen. But it doesn’t just happen. It knocks you sideways and crushes you into the ground, because you were stupid enough to believe in sunshine and roses.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I didn't know what to do with this new reality, the horror of my conception. I wanted to bury it in the backyard, far away from anyone's eyes. My skin crawled with knowledge, with the evil that I'd looked into, that had created me. I took long showers. Nothing helped. The dirt was on the inside.”
― Chevy Stevens, Never Knowing

“I'm in a weird-ass mood today, Doc. Wired up, mind all over the place, looking for answers, reasons something solid to cling to, something real, but just when I think I've got it figured out and neatly filed under fixed instead of fucked, turns out I'm still shattered, scattered, and battered. But you probably already knew that, didn't you?...You might not be able to help me. That makes me sad, but not for me. It makes me sad for you. It must be frustrating for a shrink to have a patient who's beyond fixing. That first shrink I saw when I got back to Clayton Falls told me no one is a lost cause, but I think that's bullshit. I think people can be so crushed, so broken, that they'll never be anything more than a fragment of a whole person. (129)”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“You were down to earth and funny - not at all what I imagined a psychiatrist would be. This office was so bright and pretty that, no matter what I was worried about, as soon as I walked in here felt better. Some days, especially in the beginning, I didn't want to leave.”
― Chevy Stevens, Never Knowing

“Sorry I missed our last session, but I saw my mother and I needed some time to pick myself back up off the floor. You know, it's funny, but the night after I saw her I really wanted to sleep in the closet. I stood outside it for the longest time with my pillow in hand, but I knew opening that door would be going backward, so I lay back down on my bed and conjured up your office in my mind. I told myself I was resting on your couch and you were watching over me. That's how I fell asleep. (324)”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“This thing, this terrible thing, didn't just happen to you. It happened to everyone who cared about you, but it didn't just stop there, it happened to the whole town -- even women across the country. Lots of people's lives have been changed, not just yours.”
― Chevy Stevens

“Mom would never get that lack of affection is abuse”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“You said my obsessions were passions, that my intensity was a powerful gift, that my determination was admirable. That what I considered my weaknesses could also be my greatest strengths.”
― Chevy Stevens, Never Knowing

“But this is life,” he says. “This moment now. Sometimes all you can do is breathe.”
― Chevy Stevens, Never Let You Go

“He glued it all back together, piece by piece, spent hours with a magnifying glass and tweezers, but I could still see every crack.”
― Chevy Stevens, Never Let You Go

“My grief is a windstorm. Sometimes I can stand straight up in it, and when I'm angry, I can lean into it and dare it to blow me over. But other times I need to hunker down, tuck around myself, and let it pummel my back.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I think people can be so crushed, so broken, that they’ll never be anything more than a fragment of a whole person.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“-Entonces simplemente tendrás que aceptarlo, olvidarlo y seguir adelante con tu vida.
Ojalá fuese tan fácil.”
― Chevy Stevens, Never Knowing

“To spend her life thinking I left her by choice. I would try harder. I would be a better wife. I would make it work. That was over a year ago. Nothing had gotten better.”
― Chevy Stevens, Never Let You Go

“There are all these books that say we create our own destiny and what we believe is what we manifest. You’re supposed to walk around with this perpetual bubble over your head thinking happy thoughts and then everything is going to be sunshine and roses. Nope, sorry, don’t think so. You can be as happy as you’ve ever been in your life, and shit is still going to happen. But it doesn’t just happen. It knocks you sideways and crushes you into the ground, because you were stupid enough to believe in sunshine and roses.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“The one thing I could never seem to shut out was my ache for simple, affectionate touch. I never knew how essential it was to my well being .”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“it’s almost comforting to hear that even though my life is fucked, people are getting up and going about their lives every morning.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing

“I took a moment to breathe in the fresh air, glad I’d decided to get out of the house. After a moment, I continued on to Fisherman’s Wharf. Paul and I had often taken the kids there to feed the harbor seals—you could buy a bucket of fish for a dollar. Lisa had been obsessed and talked about becoming a marine biologist for years. She’d loved animals ever since she was little, begging to come to the clinic with her father, sitting up with a sick animal. Many nights we had to drag her home. We’d been sure she’d become a vet of some kind, but that was another dream that had fallen by the wayside. I still liked to go down and see the seals myself, though it was lonelier now”
― Chevy Stevens, Always Watching

“Mama nunca entenderia que la falta de afecto equivale a un maltrato.”
― Chevy Stevens, Still Missing