Ian Cross > Quotes

“I can't, I can't, I can't help hearing, I can't help seeing. I can't help it unless I run away.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“Standing there. watching her go, I felt lonelier than I have ever been in my life.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“If you never bothered to to look or see anything much you wouldn't be worrying'
"I'd have to be very dumb to be like that"
"Then be dumb, see nothing, hear nothing”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“I lay in my bed for I don't know how long doing my best to work things out, and my best certainly wasn't good enough.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“Somehow this is what I wanted to happen. I was holding my ground under attack from my enemies, lashing out at them until they killed me, not giving a damn.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“It's all because of me isn't it? It's all my fault?”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“the air just went cold, as it did those times before, and started sticking to my skin, on my arms and legs and face, everywhere. I had seen a marble statue in a museum, a well built man doubled over throwing something, and the feeling reminded me of him. It was as if I was starting to be made of marble.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“If she had only known, things might have been different between us, but I could never talk to her about it"
[Jimmy about Molly]”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“I felt almost sick with wanting to tell her how I felt, but I couldn't think of words to suit my feelings.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“There is no hiding the fact that in some ways I am dissatisfied with God.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“And then, believe it or not, it came to me for the first time that all the difference was caused by me.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“I've got a lot of ideas about God. I pray about as much as anybody, even though i am tough , yet I'm not too sure I liked God. It seems to me that is he is what they say he is, he has a very funny way of showing it.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“Why isn't everybody the way they were at first? I wonder.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“They go on like that and I can't understand, really I can't, what it's all about, and yet I feel terrible.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“Molly wasn't hope then, of course, and i can't help hating her for not being there.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“I looked back towards them, to see if they were watching me, and saw her pulling her arm from his grip. Her eyes were closed and her hair was all over the places and her face was screwed up.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“She reminded me of a picture in a history book of the executioner who killed on of the kings.”
― Ian Cross

“Like that time I came home and Mum was sick, not letting me upstairs. Later on I heard Dad actually blaming her for being sick. That must have been the first time I felt queer.”
― Ian Cross

“I stared so long that I got to seeing them as being dark, ugly sins in my body, smelling and dirty, but my touch face showed that I didn't give a damn. I was the toughest person in the whole world. And then inside the outline of my body a devil's face slowly took shape. It came to my chest, a dark, ugly thing with big lips that looked hot around yellow pointed teeth, eyeing me in a friednly way, as though it had been feeding on what was inside me and was trying to show how pleased it was.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“Come on Pop' I said as best I could 'don't go back now'
I felt rotten, watching him go back like that.”
― Ian Cross

“ I never could talk to my sister Molly, because she was loopy”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“That wallpaper. touching it like that, was one of my protection tricks”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“Yet I didn't much want to go home.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“What exactly he would say, I couldn't imagine, but I felt sure that as soon as I had actually got everything off my chest, I wouldn't have to worry any more.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“One of the reasons dad was so pleased was because it did something to her.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“He was blaming her for being sick, and she kept repeating, 'I'm forty, do you hear? I'm forty and I've been through enough. I'm forty, it was too much.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“It was great to float on your back in a calm sea and have somebody steer you.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“But I was a fool, the biggest, damnedest, stupidest fool in thee whole world.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“Do you like Mother and Father?"
"they're both all right"
"they're not Jimmy, and you shouldn't say so. I hate them, and you should hate them."
"all right" I said, "I hate them.”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy

“I'm a very popular man, plenty of friends, and I can move in any circle and I'm always a perfect gentleman. I'd have plenty of friends if it wasn't for you. And you talk about being humiliated by me. People think you are queer, that's what people think about you”
― Ian Cross, The God Boy