Arnab Ray > Quotes

“The beauty of pain,' his father whispered in darkness, 'is that memory makes it immortal.”
― Arnab Ray, The Bucket

“I am Duryohdana. You thought you had broken me. You were wrong. You will not recognise me if you saw me now. But I am still myself. Inside”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders

“I rush in, call out Siddhanth’s name and then crane my neck to the side to get a look into his bedroom.
The first thing I notice is the poster of Pavitra Chatterjee on the wall.
And right next to it, an Amar Chitra Katha panel.
I scream.
But all that comes out of my throat is silence. Cold silence.”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders

“Water has a memory. It remembers the shape of things submerged. It remembers the final breaths of those who surrender to its depths. It remembers the paths their lives would have taken.

Most of all, it remembers the face outside, holding you down by the neck, looking down onto the now-still surface.”
― Arnab Ray, The Bucket

“No child should grow up seeing abuse from those they love because that messes up their mind.”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders

“What we call nostalgia, that ache we feel when we hear old songs or watch clips of old cricket games, it's grief. Grief for our dead selves.”
― Arnab Ray

“Whether he killed her now in an instant or would have killed her over the years, who cares? She was dead the moment she met him, either way.”
― Arnab Ray, The Bucket

“The blog had come up last night at 12.19. A few minutes later, the link had been mailed to the official address on the Kolkata Police website. Embedded in the blog post is an audio clip a few seconds long, in Pavitra Chatterjee’s voice: ‘I did it. I did it.’ It is eerie how the two lines loop on and on, and after listening to it for two minutes, I feel a chill going down my spine, and though I listen to it with clinical detachment, I wanted it to stop.”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders

“And that’s what’s evil about love.We always try to find it where we are sure we will never get it.”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders

“will edit what we record, but we will keep and share the raw footage in case you feel your words weren’t faithfully reproduced.”
― Arnab Ray, The Bucket

“After all, death is messy,though just a bit less than life”.”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders

“One of the good things of waking up early is how much more of life you find you have.”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders

“A voice in my head says that it was a mistake to break up with Siddhanth.
Then the other voice in my head says, ‘But I don’t need a man.’
Which is when the other voice that is not the first voice in my head says what I have been wanting to for a long time, but didn’t have the words for.
That I don’t need a crutch, in the way I needed Javed.
Not any more.”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders

“No child should grow up seeing abuse from those the love because that messes up their mind. They end up associating love with abuse, and so all their life when they are actually being abused, they feel they are being loved”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders

“Such deep friendship ultimately turns toxic,' Ranadeep continued, his throat tightening.
'It starts healthy, but the expectations, the unspoken rules.. They create a dependency that can consume you, and you ultimately spend your life, consciously or unconsciously, trying to run from it.”
― Arnab Ray, The Bucket

“You want to help. That’s fine but do you know how you want to help? The intent may be good, but without the way, you are lost.”
― Arnab Ray, Yatrik: The Traveller

“Being with him had been
exciting and dangerous, like speeding on a bike without
a helmet, letting your hair fly in the breeze. He gave me
courage when I had none and the strength to walk out of
the hell that was my uncle’s house.”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders

“And life, and relationships too, are somewhat like a song. If you cannot hit the notes at the right time, you go out of tune.”
― Arnab Ray, Yatrik: The Traveller

“I had a child with him, hoping it would change things, but that made his drinking and whoring worse. That was my fault, even more than his. Having Salim. Bringing an innocent being into a marriage as an instrument to save it. Which makes me complicit in my own nightmare, which makes me tell myself that I
deserve every blow that comes my way. Every one of them.”
― Arnab Ray, The Mahabharata Murders