Marissa Farrar > Quotes

“I spend a lot of time thinking now. Perhaps too much time. But I’ve decided that cancer is not the worst thing that could have happened to me. Dying of cancer isn’t the worst thing that could have happened to me. Every day, I try to remind myself that it could have been one of the children suffering from this awful, life-threatening illness, and how much worse I would be feeling if that were the case. I’m thankful it is me and not them. If I were to die having first lost one of my children, then I would die with a broken heart. Instead, I am dying surrounded by my family, knowing I was loved. What more could a woman ask for? I have been blessed. Yes, I still have moments where I want to wail and rail against the world. Where I want to scream ‘Why me?’ and cry about how unfair life is. But that is simply life. Bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people. There’s no fairness in it.”
― Marissa Farrar, The Sound of Crickets

“The anger inside me simmers away at a constant roil. It’s as if I can’t think about anything else. I turn the events of the last couple of months over and over in my head.”
― Marissa Farrar, The Sound of Crickets

“Imagine if we knocked her up,” Brody says with a nasty sneer. “We could all take turns drinking some titty juice.”
― Marissa Farrar, Brutal Limits

“There are moments I seriously question my ability to make good choices, and now is one of them.”
― Marissa Farrar, The Devils and Their Doll

“Yes, they know something happened to me, in the room, down on the beach, but they don’t know the details. Without the details, they can pretend that everything is okay, just like I can.”
― Marissa Farrar, Immoral Games

“Where does it hurt?

She lifted her fingers to her cheekbone. Here.

He moved slightly to place a soft, gentle kiss against the bruise.

And here, she said, touching her forehead.

He kissed her again.

And here … She put her fingers to her mouth.”
― Marissa Farrar, The Monster Trilogy: The Complete Series

“I’ve held myself together for so long, sometimes with no more than spit and mud, that I worry if I crumble, I won’t know how to put my pieces together again.”
― Marissa Farrar, Immoral Steps

“will I even be the same person I am now? Or will the abuse change me?”
― Marissa Farrar, Immoral Games

“I’m far from fearless. I’m scared most of the time.” She reached out and took my hand, squeezing my fingers tight. “But you don’t let your fears stop you from doing anything, and that, Darcy Sullivan, makes you brave.”
― Marissa Farrar, Decoding Darkness

“I tell myself there’s no point in worrying about what we can’t control, but it’s hard not to be petrified.”
― Marissa Farrar, Immoral Games

“Before I met you, I’d have always chosen the violin. But there are moments where I believe I’d give up everything I hold sacred if it meant I could truly see your face for just one moment. To be able to look into your eyes and see what you’re thinking...I’d give up anything for that.”
― Marissa Farrar, Immoral Steps

“What is it they say about lights at ends of tunnels? That sometimes they turn out to be trains.”
― Marissa Farrar, The Devils' Darling

“She’s not fragile like glass; she’s fragile like a bomb.”
― Marissa Farrar, Immoral Ties

“They see that livid scar across his throat and realize he can’t speak, and they know he’s been through a battle. No one sees the scars my twin and I carry. They are on the inside. And it’s the scars on the inside that hurt the most.”
― Marissa Farrar, The Vipers and Their Vendetta

“Fuck. I’m going to die. I’m going to lie here in the dark, and I’ll have an aneurysm, and die. “Kirill?” It’s Dom’s voice. “Breathe, dude. It’s okay. It’s just the power going out. It’ll be back on any second.” A strange sound comes from my throat, a weird wheezing that could also be a whine of terror. “Focus on the light from the furnace,” Tino says. “You’re going to be fine.” He fumbles, and then a white light illuminates the room in front of us. He’s turned on his phone light for me. I didn’t even think of that. I’m so fucking scared of the dark, I didn’t think about taking out my phone and using the flashlight on it.”
― Marissa Farrar, The Devils and The Duchess

“It’s real life, and I have a disability. I need to be realistic.”
― Marissa Farrar, Immoral Games

“I certainly don’t want it to ever be something I have to relive, even if it’s only in my head.”
― Marissa Farrar, Immoral Games

“will I even be the same person I am now? Or will the abuse change me? I’m already sick with a shame I’ve never known before. It’s only going to get worse.”
― Marissa Farrar, Immoral Games

“Would they still see me as some precious princess who needs protecting, or as something that had been spoiled—ruined.”
― Marissa Farrar, Immoral Games

“If we’re alone, what is the point in having strength for ourselves? If our lives are devoid of love, what’s the point in continuing on?”
― Marissa Farrar, Alone