Christina Hart > Quotes

“I was holding on
to hurricane nights
and lit candles
and my acoustic guitar
resting in your hands.
I was holding on
to the sound of
your voice saying my name
and the peace I felt
with your arms
around me.
I was holding on
to documentaries in bed
and your beautiful eyes
closed as you sang
Rocket Man and all
the songs we never finished.
I was holding on
to our first text and
last phone call and
the plane ticket you
offered but never sent.
I was holding on
to our first Christmas
together
and the last few Christmas Eves
apart
and I've been thinking
we should be together.
we should be kissing
even if there
isn't any mistletoe
because if I have you
there' no reason to celebrate and
fuck, your lips were mine.
They were always supposed
to be mine.
I was holding on
to hope and banana pancakes
on Sundays.
I was holding on
to Main Street and
sunsets in Jersey.
I was holding on
to two streets
that separated us and
blizzards that couldn't
keep us apart.
I was holding on
to you.
I was holding on
to us.
And it was killing me.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“I am playing hide-and-seek with the person I used to be and the person I could be”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“Beginnings are beautiful— the potential, the hope, the realization that you can still feel. But the endings are where the magic happens. The world crashing down around you as you reassemble all the parts that make you. The slaughter, if you think about it, it’s gorgeous.”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“I see glimpses of you
in the air, at the bar,
at the store. I see
flashes of you
even when my
eyes are open, glued
to the television
to distract me from
the fact that you are
not sitting besides me.
I cannot stand the
cold, dead darkness of
an empty room.
I need to keep the lights on and pretend
you'll turn them off
when you come
back to bed.”
― Christina Hart, Empty Hotel Rooms Meant for Us

“There are a million ways
to kill someone
that leaves them
able to walk away.”
― Christina Hart, Empty Hotel Rooms Meant for Us

“To sum it all up,
he taught me
two things:

I am still not
good enough,

and I am too
good for him.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“I am playing hide-and-seek with the person I used to be and the person I could be and I cannot find either of them anywhere.”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“I grew tired of
blowing dandelion fuzz,
wishing you'd come back to me.
I got sick of
thinking about the
way you used to
drift off to sleep
and smile with
your eyes still closed
when I'd try to
keep you awake.
The mistakes I made ⎼
with you ⎼ they like to
hang around and
remind me of all the ways
I poked holes in this thing
and it started to sink.
But the hope?
The hope I still have
for us is probably
the worst of it all.
Yet somehow
it feels good,
and right now,
I don't think
I'll ever tire of it.
That hope is probably
the only thing
that's keeping me afloat.”
― Christina Hart, Empty Hotel Rooms Meant for Us

“I can still hear
your voice
telling me
I was
e v e r y t h i n g
to you.
I wasn't.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“I love when it rains, when it seems like the sky has had enough of keeping it all in and finally explodes”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“To sum it all up, he taught me two things: I am still not good enough, and I am too good for him.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“SHATTERING HEARTS     One day I will shatter hearts with all the stones they threw at me.  ”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“I turned too many
shades of blue
choking on all the things
I wanted to say to you.
"I thought this was real"
must have gone down
wrong and
"Come back to me"
was lost somewhere
in my windpipe.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“You were true love and
worshipping hands and
gratitude in your eyes.
You were birthday cards
and presents and surprises
to make me smile.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“And then I realized the problem wasn’t all the things they said about me, the problem was that I believed them.”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“There is beauty in the bleeding. There is hope in the healing.”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“I fell in love with you in a hurry, like you were going somewhere fast - which you did. You came and went like an earthquake, like some sort of eclipse. I've spent hours, days, months, years missing you. But then something strange happened, and now I can't remember why I ever loved you at all. You didn't deserve it. I should have loved me more.”
― Christina Hart

“I had a dream of you. And in it, you loved me too.”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“There's a terrible sadness in me
and I don't know if it's personal
or just part of being human.”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty In the Bleeding

“I had to kill certain parts of me that only live now in the memory of you.”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“I can still taste
the sting of
the last time
you told me
this love was
forever.
It wasn't.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“I can still hear
the banging of
the drums
in my heart
as I told you
I was done
this time
and you thought
I was joking.
I wasn't.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“TRYING TO BE OKAY And maybe life isn’t about growing up or moving on, maybe it’s about being who we are and where we are and being completely okay with it.”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“I am learning
how to unfeel all the
hands that touched me
that were not yours.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“One day I will shatter hearts with all the stones they threw”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“And I carry on, because it’s the only thing I can do.”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“Sometimes I wonder if they can still smell me on their sheets or if they just think of me whenever loneliness wraps her hand around their throats. Maybe they feel me in the squeeze, maybe they remember me in the choke. Or maybe I am their safe word,”
― Christina Hart, There Is Beauty in the Bleeding

“Sometimes I still
see you in strangers
and I hope your
eyes aren't as
loveless
as theirs are.
I hope your
dreams have
built a home
from your bones
and I hope
it's cozy and
unsettling
all at the
same time
because
for some reason
you are still
saving a spot
for me.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“I am trying to remember.
Your words. Your words. Your words.
You said so many words
and I am trying to remember them all
and I am trying not to forget them all
and I am trying to keep them locked
in this place in my chest that used to
keep my heart warm.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste

“Your grip on my wrist
and your hands in my hair.
I am trying to forget.
Your hands on my back
and my body, shaking,
beneath you.
I am trying to forget.
Your hands.
Your hands.
Your hands.
I am trying to forget.
Your mouth on mine and
the music that came from it.”
― Christina Hart, Letting Go Is an Acquired Taste