Nicole Sobon > Quotes

“Sometimes the hardest part isn't letting go but rather learning to start over.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“You love them, even though they're gone. In order to love you need to live, if you give up on life you can no longer love. You'd no longer have the capability to love them.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“My past is trying to catch up to me and I must continue run from it. It's the only way I can live.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“The thing about the truth was that it sometimes tore apart the perfect world we forced ourselves into believing existed.”
― Nicole Sobon, Submerged

“How could you explain to someone that sometimes it was not worth living in the past when the past was all that they had worth living for?”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“People screw up. People screw up a lot. We allow our own selfishness to overpower us at times. It happens. But you can’t allow that to tear you down. You can’t keep dwelling on your past choices, and your past actions, or else you’ll never learn from them.”
― Nicole Sobon, Deprogrammed

“I went from having everything to losing it all almost instantly. Something that traumatic changes a person. The anger, the depression – it shapes you until you become unrecognizable. Until the person you were has been erased.”
― Nicole Sobon, Deprogrammed

“I closed my eyes, seeking a moment of peace but finding none. Behind my eyelids, an entirely new nightmare was waiting. This wasn’t another haunting memory. This was a new form of torture.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“There is no way of stopping death, not here. You can prolong it. But at some point, it is bound to catch up to you.”
― Nicole Sobon, The Yearning

“All of this time – I need you to answer one thing,” I paused, preparing for the incoming heartbreak that would surely follow. “Did you ever give up on me?”
“Never.” Her voice was stern. “No matter how much trouble you may have caused, Taylen. No matter how much you may have hurt me. I’ve never given up on you, love, and I never will.”
― Nicole Sobon, Submerged

“It was easy to believe in anything when you were desperate enough...”
― Nicole Sobon, Submerged

“I really need to remember to block my thoughts."

"Oh, come on," he pulled me closer towards him. "Why are you so scared?"

"Because the second that I let this conversation happen, I'll be letting my walls down. No matter what answer you give me, you'll have some sort of power over me, and I don't want that." I pushed past him, plopping down on the bed, not bothering to remove my boots.

I could feel the mattress sink beside me. Ian ran his fingers through my hair. "Come here," he spoke softly. "Please." I pushed myself into a sitting position, and moved closer to him, leaning my head on Ian's shoulder. "I like this, a lot. It feels nice." Ian lifted my chin so that I was forced to look directly at him, and then he leaned in to kiss me.”
― Nicole Sobon, Capture

“Just as I allowed them to live in my mind, I allowed them to die.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“No matter how hard he tried, he just couldn’t let them go. He wanted to start fresh, but there is no denying the heart what it longs for – especially when it longs for home.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“For one last time, I said my goodbyes to the place I’d known as home for the last decade, and for the first time, I welcomed the unknown.”
― Nicole Sobon, Submerged

“It never ceased to amaze me just how fast one could lose everything.”
― Nicole Sobon, Rebooted

“He looked up at me without saying a word. I tried to hold it together but I could feel myself breaking as I fell to the floor, my face in my hands – tears flowing down my cheeks. For the first time in a while I felt like I was truly losing a hold of myself.”
― Nicole Sobon, Capture

“Together. The fact that one single word could send my heart aflutter was utterly ridiculous. I didn’t fall for boys I hardly knew. At least, I hadn’t until I met Glate.
The night in the shack, things changed between us. The walls I’d built up once the Sectors were formed? Glate had torn them down, and I knew that Lex could see that by the daggers he kept shooting our way.
Was I in love with Glate? No, though I was sure Lex thought otherwise.
Glate was the stability I sought in a world of discord; being with him made things easier to handle. I wasn’t weak, but even I had my breaking point, and when I was ready to break, he was there to pick up all of the pieces. He was there, something I could never say for Lex.
“Thank you,” I said after a few moments of silence. “For everything.”
“Everyone needs a shoulder to lean on,” he said. “I’m more than willing to be that shoulder for you, Taylen. I’m willing to be whatever you need me to be. Just know that.”
― Nicole Sobon, Submerged

“body went tense, forcing goose bumps to rise over my bare arms. My tough demeanor had been ripped apart and was replaced by a frightened little girl in need of her father’s protection. But he wasn’t here, and all I had was Jeremy. It wasn’t his responsibility to protect me. He shouldn’t have to worry about me.

And I shouldn’t be falling apart like this.”
― Nicole Sobon, No Place Like Home

“I walked slowly, my eyes focused on the gravel beneath me. I didn’t know where I was going, not that I cared. I just needed to get away. Soon enough, I’d find my way home. I had to believe that.

There was a loud crackling noise in the sky as the thunder rolled through the clouds. I threw my head back, admiring the storm above. The sky was dark with flashes of white sparking throughout with each bolt of lightening following behind the thunder. It was beautiful. “After the storm, you will find peace.” I smiled as the sound boomed through the quiet neighborhood. And in that moment I felt at one with the storm as the pain inside of me slowly began to seep out.”
― Nicole Sobon, No Place Like Home

“Hope.
It was both the best thing and the worst thing that could happen to a person. It had the ability to consume a person, to become them.
I used to believe in the idea of hope before I saw what it had done to Hayden – what I had done to Hayden.”
― Nicole Sobon, Allegiance

“He’s safe, I repeated to myself over and over again. But even I knew it wasn’t the truth. For now he was safe, but they’d find him. Eventually they’d find him, they always do. I was supposed to protect him. I was supposed to keep him alive. Instead I’d brought him directly into the lion’s pit.”
― Nicole Sobon, Program 13

“Hope could be a devastating emotion if you allowed it to control you.
But it was a risk that I was willing to take.”
― Nicole Sobon, Deprogrammed

“I want to do this right,” he said.
“Wha—?” I went to protest, but he stopped me before I could.
“Gemma, trust me when I say I want nothing more than to kiss you. Hell, I’d love to take you right now, right here, but I can’t.”
Well, this was not where I saw things going. I crossed my arms over my chest in a pitiful attempt at mock sadness.
Ben just laughed. “Do you know why I can’t?”
Obviously not, I thought to myself. If I had, I wouldn’t have been begging for him to continue. Lying this close to him? It was hard to forget what had just occurred. My body was aching for his presence, for his touch, still adjusting to the electric shock that had coursed through me. “No,” I answered. “Please, enlighten me.”
Ben reached for my hand, entwining my fingers with his. A devilish grin spread upon his full lips. “Because, when I do finally kiss you, Gemma Michaels, I want to see to it that I’m your last first kiss.”
― Nicole Sobon, Collide

“I needed Hack to think that I would comply, that I’d go along with his nonsense because that would be the only way to discover the truth. I needed him to think he was in control so that he could slip up. All it would take was one mishap on his end, that was all I would need.

One mistake and I would be able to figure out what he was hiding.

So instead of allowing my anger to guide me, I chose to allow hope to lead me in the right direction.

Hope was my ammunition.

And I was the weapon.”
― Nicole Sobon

“I shot him a smile and spun back around to face my computer screen, unable to process what the hell had just happened. That was when I noticed a small Post-It-note pressed against my Dell monitor. Scribbled across the neon pink sticky was a note from Jesse:
Evie, what are you so afraid of?
-Jesse
What was I afraid of? I was afraid of everything.
I was afraid of letting people in.
I was afraid of falling.
But most of all, I was afraid of myself. I was my own worst enemy.
I grabbed a blank Post-It note from the container on my desk and pulled a black pen out of my coat pocket. I allowed my hand to move freely, not thinking of my response. Only then, after I placed the pen down on my desk did I read what I’d written.
Reality.”
― Nicole Sobon, Decoding Evie

“This is your idea of mission uniform?” Cole asked, eyeing my burgundy leather ensemble.

I arched a brow at him as I shoved my cell phone inside of my back pant pocket. “What? Do you have a problem with it?”

“Well, last I checked, we were supposed to get in and take care of the mission without drawing any attention to ourselves.”

“And we will,” I assured him. “Just remember to keep your eyes on the target as opposed to on me, and we’ll be fine.”
― Nicole Sobon, Arabella

“I knew that I was about to walk into Hell – not literally, of course, but as close to it as one could get on Earth – and I wasn’t sure that I’d last to see another day. But I also knew that I didn’t regret the actions that had led to me being here.
Love, pure love was one of the most exhilarating things that I’d ever experienced.
I’d never known a feeling more genuine, or thrilling than the feeling of being in love.
It was an all-consuming thing; a feeling that overtook your mind and body, one that I’d hoped I’d never forget because the experience of love was something that every person should have had the right to.”
― Nicole Sobon, Is Love, Volume 1

“Life as a hunter often felt pre-determined for us. We were taught to use a stake early on, and hunting was something we were taught was a right of passage. I’d learned, though, nothing in life was set in stone.
All it took was one minor shake-up for our plans to change. It was terrifying at first, sure. The idea of having to accept the world wasn’t what you thought it to be, but once you let go of the idea that you had to follow a certain plan, life became better.”
― Nicole Sobon, Thanks for the Venom

“But do you think our futures are already determined for us?”
“Why are you asking all of this? What’s going on?”
I let out a small laugh. “Remember when we were in the hallway?” He nodded. “Well, Thirteen tried telling me that I couldn’t escape my fate and that there was no point in fighting the inevitable.”
“Do you think it is inevitable?” he asked.
“Me?” I scoffed. “No. Nothing is ever guaranteed. One minor adjustment can alter everything. Nothing is ever set in stone. As of right now, we’re all on one path: we’re all stuck inside of this hell that we’re trying to escape, and it may seem like the outcome has already been determined for us, but it hasn’t. The smallest of things could change everything. A death. Deception. Anything could force us to follow another path, and you know what? We determine that path, not fate.”
“What path do you see yourself on?” Colton hopped up onto the computer desk, tucking his hands underneath his thighs.
“I see us starting new lives outside of this place, far from McVeigh and his men,” I answered honestly. “But I know not all of us will make it out of here. There is still more pain to come our way, but there is also happiness if we allow for it.”
― Nicole Sobon, Deprogrammed