Apryl Baker > Quotes

“Officer Dan..." I start.

"Squirt..." He grins while trying to swallow.

"I'm trying to be nice," I say, eyes narrowed. "Do you know how hard that is right now?”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“She could break him, and he didn’t care.”
― Apryl Baker, Touch Me Not

“We all have that inner fear of the dark, no matter how old we get. It’s an ingrained instinct to fear the velvety blackness of the night, of things you can’t quite see, but know deep down in your bones is there, waiting.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“No way do I ever want to try to do anything without my trusty Google search.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“Killing yourself might stop your problems at the moment, but it left everyone who cared about you in as much pain or more than you were in before you offed yourself.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files 2

“Easy, dushka," he mumured. "You're safe.”
― Apryl Baker, Touch Me Not

“life is hard, and you do what you have to do in order to survive.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“He shushes me with his lips and I melt as always. He sure does know how to kiss,”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“No one wants to believe that when we die, that’s it. Everything that we are, that we were, will just cease to exist when we die. We need to believe that there is something more out there. If there isn’t, what’s the point of all this? That is why deep down, we all believe in that higher power. We have to believe that when we die, we go on, that something is out there besides an empty void or that the energy that makes us unique will simply extinguish. It’s an instinct ingrained in every human alive.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“You either love me or hate me, no middle ground to be had.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files 2

“Cherry blossom lipstick applied to full, pouty lips to perfection, check. Smoky eyes, check. The hazel color does throw off the smoke effect, but they still look pretty darn good. Black curls flowing down white fleece in a flirty style, check. Kid with the hole in her head, check. Skinny jeans… hole in her head?!”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“He smiles at me and his brown eyes are full of warm chocolate gooeyness.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“Sure, he wanted her in a bad way, but he also had this insane urge to help her, to give her back everything she’d lost. He couldn’t explain it, but Lily mattered to him. In just two weeks, she’d gone from a fuck bet to someone he cared about.”
― Apryl Baker, Touch Me Not

“Everyone has some darkness within, but few admit to its existence, much less let it out.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files 3

“I’ll make you a promise, okay? I promise no matter what you do, I will always be here for you. I will never leave you and I will never let you drive me away, no matter how hard you try. You’re stuck with me, kid.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“Did Officer Dan just admit he likes me?”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“No way do I ever want to try to do anything without my trusty Google”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“My right fist connects firmly with his nose. I hear a nasty pop and blood flows. I twist so that my legs are free of the booth and place a well-aimed kick at his kneecaps. He goes down hard.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“No one wants to believe that when we die, that’s it. Everything we are, that we were, will just cease to exist when we die. We need to believe there is something more out there. If there isn’t, what’s the point of all this?”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“Something’s not right. The kid’s not talking to me. That much I know because she’s not even looking my direction. She’s looking in the mirror. My eyes focus on the mirror and I fall backwards trying to get away from the image there. Bloody, broken bits of flesh make up what I think is a face, but it’s hard to tell. It looks like someone carved it up with a cleaver. I don’t even know if it’s a boy or a girl staring at me and I’m not sure I want to know, either. The bullet hole in its head is there, but it blends in with the sticky black and red of the shredded face. Whatever got Emma got this… person, too. But why is it stopping her from telling me where they are?”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“You'd be amazed at how many self-proclaimed atheist will start to pray right before they die.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“My theory is you can look at all the eye candy you want and still appreciate what you have at home.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“Don’t worry, baby girl,” she’d whispered. “It’s all going to get better now.” She raised her hand, and that’s when I’d seen the knife. By then it was too late. I pitched forward off the couch when she ripped the knife out of me. Pain lanced through my chest, and I screamed. She brought the knife down again and again, her eyes calm and peaceful the whole time. She kissed my cheek and told me to go to sleep. Raising the knife once more, she pushed it deep into her own throat before pulling it out. She collapsed beside me, her face inches from mine.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“I don’t know why you matter to me. I mean, I barely know you, but I need to know you’re safe, that you’re happy, and that you have everything you need. You’re important to me. That’s about all I’ve figured out right now, at least until you get a little older. You really are jailbait until you turn eighteen.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“Eric Cameron. No… it couldn’t be. Oh. My. God. “Mattie?” That was why Eric was so familiar to me. I know his freaking name. Mirror Boy had been a foster kid.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“He nods and comes to sit back down, his face serious again. “Are you going to do this a lot?” “Define ‘this.’ I do a lot of stupid stuff.” “Leave me voicemails breaking up with me.” “Officer Dan, we can’t break up ’cause we were never together.” “Mattie,” he growls. “Maybe.” “Well, get over it because I love you, Mattie Hathaway. I’m not sure what that means right now, but I do. You’re stuck with me, Squirt. I’m not going anywhere.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“cutest guy I ever drooled over.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“No one has ever affected me the way you do. It was so intense, I ran away from you, but once you looked into my eyes, I was a goner.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files 3

“ghost. No way am I gonna get bullied by anyone or anything—especially ghosts. “Mattie, you okay?” Mrs. Olson is eyeballing me with concern. I haven’t moved to get out of the car. “All good, Mrs. O,” I smile weakly at her. “Just tired.” Taking a deep breath, I open the door and force myself out. I am not afraid, I chant over and over. The other kids are still at school, so the house is pretty empty. Mrs. O had told me earlier we had a new foster kid in the house, but I’m betting he’s at school too. She sends me upstairs with the promise to bring me a sandwich and a glass of milk. The doctors said no caffeine for a while, so my favorite drink in the world, Coke, is off limits. At least until I can escape and get to a gas station. I need it like an addict needs crack. My room is exactly as I left it, the bed turned down and my clothes thrown into a corner. A simple white dresser and mirror, desk, and a twin bed covered in my worn out quilt decorate the room.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files

“I’m a screwed up mess that no one can ever love, not really. Why did I ever let myself hope I could find a little happiness? Pointless.”
― Apryl Baker, The Ghost Files 2