Courtney C. Stevens > Quotes

“If nothing changes, nothing changes. If you keep doing what you're doing, you're going to keep getting what you're getting. You want change, make some.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, The Lies about Truth

“Right now we're both yard sales of emotions. A penny for pain. A dime for bitterness. A quarter for grief. A dollar for silence. It binds us together, but I don't want him to pay the price for the parts of me that are used and broken.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“Every song deserves lyrics. Deserves a story to tell.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“Bravery comes one day at a time.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“I'd like to hold you in the mountains, like to kiss you by the sea. Take you far, far from here to a place where you feel free. Cause we are safe, we are true, we are going to make it through. Crashing worlds, falling stars, breaking all of who we are- I want infinity with you.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“He's opening a door, but he already knows I won't walk through. The power of Bodee is in the way he reads me, sees through me, and then understands the truth behind the facade. He's the guy who can walk straight through the House of Mirrors on the first try. It's almost annoying. No one should ride tragedy like a pro surfer while I drown.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“But today is better than yesterday. And this hurt is still a hole in me, but it's a shrinking hole.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“Love in pencil is safer than love in life.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“I feel myself shutting down, closing off, like I should tell people, "No, we don't use this heart anymore. It's too fragile.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, The Lies about Truth

“And more than that, Bodee left me with hope. For love. For wanting someone to touch me again and to lie with me without fear as my first response. Because Bodee slept in his sneakers, because Bodee asked for a kiss instead of just taking it, and because he kept space between us. He danced with two fingers until I asked for three or four... and his hand on my hip.
I know we're both still broken. Both of us. But Bodee's got the glue to make us whole.
He is love.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“If he were to put his heart in my hand, he might never find it again. And I'm not cruel enough to let him break while he tries to heal the impossible.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“Happiness was getting stuck with someone and never feeling stuck.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, The Lies about Truth

“I won't let anyone hurt you."
If a heart can smile, mine does.
"Bodee, thanks," I say, though I know he doesn't need it. "I'm sorry you lost her."
"At least I found you," he says.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“Imagination was a gift I kept in my front pocket.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, The Lies about Truth

“Alone.
Before this crowd.
Alone, in this terrible dream.
Who am I in this visible silence?
Can they hear me scream?”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“There are no words to this music, and that makes me sad. Every song deserves lyrics. Deserves a story to tell.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“Vibrant eyes, chocolate brown, kind. The mosaic of Bodee Lennox.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“He doesn't talk. Except to me. Doesn't smile. Except for me. Doesn't go to dances. Except for me. This is the refrain of our song. He's different with me, and yet I know this is the real Bodee. He's not pretending anymore.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“He says, "I think there's a place where love equals history and a place where love equals the future and a place where love is just love and it doesn't go away no matter whether you get it back or not. Figuring out the difference-"

"Is impossible," I finish.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Dress Codes for Small Towns

“No one talked about the questions, because talking ruined plausible deniability. Talking burst the bubble of innocence. Talking ended the happily ever after. These were the truths they believed. And they were lies. They should have talked while there was still something to say.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, The Lies about Truth

“I know these two weeks have been God walking right into my life like he has flesh and Kool-Aid coloured hair. The gospel according to Bodee Lennox. His safety. His protection. And love.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“Dance to forget yourself.
Dance to forgive
Let your body and your mind agree
If only for this breathe right now
Dance like you're free”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“I don't measure her love in hours spent with me. I measure it in hours spent understanding me.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Dress Codes for Small Towns

“What everyone is scared of—that if I’m me, I’m not enough.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Dress Codes for Small Towns

“ Your hurt is not an excuse to take.
Your loneliness is not an excuse to cheat.
Your desire is not a reason to rape.
You raped me, and now, I'm going to rape you. ”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“There is more than one way to add color to the world. More than one way to crown a queen.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Dress Codes for Small Towns

“Maybe forgiveness was giving the past less power to hurt me. Or even building new memories that were stronger than the painful ones.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, The Lies about Truth

“Black funeral dress. Black heels. Black headband in my hair. Death has a style all it's own. I'm glad I don't have to wear it very often.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“One corner of Bodee's mouth moves. There's neither a smile nor a frown on his face, but I understand. Without words, he's telling me not to worry. He'll make certain I get home safely tonight.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, Faking Normal

“It's been a year. It's been a really hard year without you. Losing you felt like jumping off the bridge and forgetting which way was up. I don't think I'll ever be over it, but I'm starting to find my way through it. Mom said when a person dies, you don't get over it by forgetting; you get through it by remembering. I've been remembering everything lately.”
― Courtney C. Stevens, The Lies about Truth