Luke Hartwell > Quotes

“Like the conceited asshole I am, I had only thought about how lucky he was that I was letting him have sex with me. I had never stopped to consider how lucky I was too.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“That first Wednesday night alone the only thing of significance I discovered was just how wonderful it is to masturbate in an empty house. I was ashamed of myself, skipping church for that, but that's the sad truth. That's what happened.
I also watched TV.”
― Luke Hartwell, Nathan's Story

“Some people want to see the northern lights. Some people wants to see the Grand Canyon. Some people wants to see the Holy Grail. Some people want to see a rainbow bunting. Some people want to see a winning lottery ticket. Some want to see the President. I wanted so badly to see Michael's dick.”
― Luke Hartwell, Michael

“Straight guys, I was starting to realize, were quite frequently not one hundred percent straight.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“Can a twelve year old boy fall in love with a nine year old boy? You bet.”
― Luke Hartwell, Jimmy

“I'm not into men, but I'm into you. I love you, dude. Always have. I would do anything for you, Topi. Present tense.”
― Luke Hartwell, Jimmy

“He has good taste for his budget.”
― Luke Hartwell, Toller

“People may call it puppy love, but it feels like a full-grown dog when you've got it.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“Nathan just didn't seem interested in having to prove he was a man. To some guys, that could mean he must be gay. I knew the type, and I personally knew he was more of a man than just about any of them. For starters, he was his own man. He didn't just follow the crowd. He was also tough and courageous. He was also kind. Maybe that was it.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“You guys shouldn't fight. Ever. I'm sorry about what I said. I didn't mean it. Just don't fight again."
There was more behind the words, I knew. If Teddy had been older, he would have said more. But at fourteen, that was all he knew to say. It was enough.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“They say never say never, but I think I can say never. If you don't want this now, then I'll go to my grave never having had sex with a man, and that’s fine by me. And if you do want it, it's a one-time thing like you said; it won't be happening again. But if a man having sex with a man sends a man to hell, you can send me. It's your decision.”
― Luke Hartwell, Jimmy

“You're so young and hairless, kissing you is almost like kissing a girl."
I didn't know what to say. That wasn't an insult, but it wasn't a compliment either.”
― Luke Hartwell, Nathan's Story

“Brian looked a bit scared now, even though he was also bigger than I was. And richer. And whiter.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“We didn't say much. I had heard the expression "Be Here Now." We were here. Now.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“I was often a prick, and I knew it. Only I always knew it too late.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“I found most things in the Bible confusing. I never read it unless I had to. I had to admit, though, Nathan sure knew how to pick out the good bits.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“The two worst inventions of all time? Religion and gunpowder.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“Do I know the way to San Jose, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa-oh-ee-oh-oh? I realize this was written in the days before GPS, but even then maps were readily available. One shouldn’t set out for San Jose not knowing how to get there. In any case, yes, I do, but I need to know from which direction you’re coming.”
― Luke Hartwell, Toller

“But tonight, seeing where his family lived, seeing his box of treasure that had made me want to cry, seeing him give me anything he thought I wanted of what little he had, and now experiencing him giving me himself...”
― Luke Hartwell, Jimmy

“That's what I do in my fantasies; I fuck people. And since I first saw Michael sitting in the back of my lit class, my fantasy life has become monogamous. I only fuck Michael.”
― Luke Hartwell, Michael

“So how do you define this shit? If you're attracted to a million girls and one guy, are you bisexual? It was a question worth asking.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“He'd teased me about having sex with him on any number of occasions, in bed together during a sleep over or just out walking through a deserted field or along the lake, but I thought that was all it was, a tease. He had teased me in a way with his frequent tales of having sex with girls. And once he even unzipped his pants, whipped out his erection, and asked me if I wanted it. I can imagine how shocked I must have looked, and he had laughed loudly, zipped back up, and moved on to his next crazy idea. But I had that image of him standing before me, rock hard and inviting, for the rest of my life.”
― Luke Hartwell, Jimmy

“This fooling around we're doing, I guess it's kind of like having sex."
"When we have sex, you'll know it.”
― Luke Hartwell, Nathan's Story

“I went online and ended up spending seven hours-yep, seven hours, only taking a break to eat a bit of dinner-looking up how the Bible came to be. I knew God hadn't just handed it to someone and said, "Here. I wrote a book." But I had never bothered to investigate how all those individual books and letters came to be "The Bible" and who had decided that. Now that I was doing it, I couldn't believe I had never thought of doing it before. How on earth could I have been fed this stuff all my life without ever asking where it all came from?”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“Some fantasies should just stay fantasies. The characters in them should never talk to each other in real life.”
― Luke Hartwell, Michael

“We spend most of the time we're together fucking, not talking. Makes life easier.”
― Luke Hartwell, Michael

“I wasn't expecting it to be like this. I wasn't expecting it to feel so good. I wasn't expecting to enjoy him breathing in ear and nibbling on my neck. Fuck, it was so damn good!”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“One Sunday morning Brother Jim preached about the evils of homosexuality. He kept saying it was "a bomb nation." I knew he meant abomination, but I couldn't get past the fact that the man was so ignorant he didn't even know how to pronounce it.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“Not every day your best friend worships your cock almost like it is god or something.”
― Luke Hartwell, Atom Heart John Beloved

“We lay together in silence for a while, thinking.
“By the way,” Toller says. “Your body is actually even better than the one in the painting.”
“Nah,” I say. “It’s just in 3-D, that’s all. It’s real, and you can touch it.”
― Luke Hartwell, Toller