Eliza Clark > Quotes

“Even short lives are complex and rich. Even dead children are full of contradictions and flaws and mysteries that will never be fully understood or solved.”
― Eliza Clark, Penance

“I don’t know, reading about this horrible stuff, knowing that life went on and the world just kept on turning. It was really fucking depressing but it also ... it was quite comforting, as well. In like, a bleak way.”
― Eliza Clark, Penance

“I really think hell is real,' said Dolly. 'But I think we make it. I think people create tiny hells. Little pocket dimensions, little hell dimensions.”
― Eliza Clark, Penance

“I am playing Dramatical Murder (an erotic visual novel) at my desk and don’t pay attention to the TV.”
― Eliza Clark

“Do I have to smash a glass over the head of every single man I come into contact with, just so I leave a fucking mark”
― Eliza Clark, Boy Parts: Los pedazos de un chico

“I see the milky eyed face of my boy, his head bobbing to the surface. I pick it up by the hair and find a knot of plastic bags and pond weed in my hand. It isn't him. It never is.”
― Eliza Clark

“When you get into theory, you find the flowers aren’t miles away from the photographs. They’re impressions of living things – like fossils, pressed and preserved, the way an image impresses itself onto a roll of film”
― Eliza Clark, Boy Parts: Los pedazos de un chico

“Shall I compare thee to a heavily discounted piece of meat on the reduced shelf at the end of the day? Thou art cheaper and, hopefully, fresher.”
― Eliza Clark

“I'm not a bad person," she said. "If I see a turtle on the road, I stop and pick it up, bring it back to the grass. Coming here I saved two turtles from getting hit by cars. I even stopped to save a clump of dirt.”
― Eliza Clark, Bite the Stars

“You managed to write four perfectly accurate books prior to this. Four books with no 'artistic licence'.'
'And perhaps they weren't as good!”
― Eliza Clark, Penance

“You make your choices and sometimes, like Harry Houdini himself, everything, even your death, has to do with who you are and how you lived your life. You die the death you made for yourself by the way you lived.”
― Eliza Clark, Bite the Stars

“I looked in the mirror a lot during this time. The body I once recognised as my own had melted away. Who was this creature beneath the fat? At the time, I failed to recognise her as my best self. I thought she was nothing like a real girl. I thought she looked like something a pervert imagined; something a twelve-year-old boy doodled in the back of a notebook.”
― Eliza Clark

“oh my god go fuck yourself lmfaooooo”
― Eliza Clark

“She said my other photographs had a pervy feel, and she was almost impressed that such a young woman would come out with something this nasty. She said, based on both the work and my writing around it, I had a contemptuous attitude towards my models. I clearly saw them as interchangeable, disposable objects. She asked me if I hated men, or if I liked men and hated that I liked them so much.”
― Eliza Clark

“to serve her then be consumed by her is the greatest joy”
― Eliza Clark

“There’s a soft part of your brain. A place where you’re still just a child. Once someone’s poked the soft spot, the dent doesn’t go away. Like sticking your fingers in wet concrete.

I catch my reflection in the wing mirror. There she is, with her smudged eyeliner and her messy hair, the tracks of her hair extensions on display, lipstick on the tip of her nose and her chin. She’s wet concrete gone hard, full of dents, reshaped into this thing, which burps and pisses and has to be washed and fed and fucked.

I look in the mirror and think: who the fuck is that? Who is she?”
― Eliza Clark

“When I'm with you, I feel like the only person in the whole world, and no one at all at the same time.”
― Eliza Clark

“I thought about when I was a teenager and standing in front of the mirror feeling furious because I knew I was pretty. I knew that under the freckles, the extra weight, the big ears and the nose I hadn't grown into, I knew I was beautiful.”
― Eliza Clark

“I smiled, always happy to be the exception to a rule.”
― Eliza Clark

“In the land of the borderline autistic, the man who can make eye contact is King.”
― Eliza Clark, Boy Parts: Los pedazos de un chico

“Gniew, jaki czuła, był bezkształtny i ogólnikowy; ciche brzęczenie skierowane na nic i na wszystko jednocześnie. (...) Nie miała żadnych uczuciowych rywalek, na które mogłaby skierować swoją furię; tak samo jak nikogo za bardzo nienawidziła, tak też raczej nikogo specjalnie nie lubiła. Nic nie wzbudzało w niej wyjątkowo silnych uczuć. Czasami zastanawiała się, czy jest psychopatką. Ciągle to guglowała i usiłowała dopasować diagnozę do siebie. Ale była zbyt smutna, za bardzo bojaźliwa i zachowywała się zbyt grzecznie, żeby być psychopatką. Była po prostu kolejną dość mocno przygnębioną nastolatką z klasy średniej. (...) Jedną z milionów innych smętnych dziewczyn, które nie mają żadnych prawdziwych problemów poza niejasnym niepokojem egzystencjalnym.”
― Eliza Clark, Penance

“And you do choose these things. You choose to make yourself feel like an absolute fucking spineless, easily led pile of shit with a steaming hangover tomorrow morning. Maybe even tomorrow evening. The night is young, and I have so much cocaine in my bra.”
― Eliza Clark

“He's my favorite kind of boy to shoot, I think. A nice boy. A boy who works a demeaning job and has the subtleties of his beauty overlooked by glamorous women and the industries of the aesthetic. The kind of boy who's bewildered and grateful, and will gaze down the barrel of my camera and do anything for me. It's like discovering a new flower no one else has noticed. Pressed in a photo; preserved and filed away forever, ageless and lovely and all mine.”
― Eliza Clark

“When I first pulled it up into my boat, I was afraid. And then I was not, because I knew that it was my catch. My thing. I would be able to keep it forever and admire it. I thought about butchering it and eating it, so it could be within me forever. I thought about making its bones into little trinkets. Then I did not think that any more – like a door had slammed closed on the thought. Instead, I thought the creature itself could be my slippery trinket, living and breathing and in my arms.”
― Eliza Clark

“He died doing what he loved (being eaten alive and straight up jerking it).”
― ELIZA CLARK

“She was bright, but a tad lazy – social and easily distracted.”
― Eliza Clark, Penance

“It’s so frightened. How many Skins would it trade, though? Just to be away from this place? How many Skins?”
― Eliza Clark

“I look soft. I can look hard, if I'm not careful. Hard and cold and intimidating.”
― Eliza Clark

“She gets to be there forever. Skinny and gorgeous and young, and I'm stuck out here. I'm stuck watching the video over and over again, rotting.”
― Eliza Clark

“Do I have to smash a glass over the head of every single man I come into contact with, just so I leave a fucking mark?

'Jesus.”
― Eliza Clark