Gillian Marchenko > Quotes

“I know of other mothers who have children with disabilities,and right away they loved them and decided to fight for them.
That isn’t my story.”
― Gillian Marchenko, Sun Shine Down: A Memoir

“Sometimes writing is just rubbing words together long enough to make a fire.”
― Gillian Marchenko, Sun Shine Down: A Memoir

“Having to admit that you are depressed makes one feel less than. Broken. Yes, that's what it is. Broken.”
― Gillian Marchenko, Still Life: A Memoir of Living Fully with Depression

“Light existed all along. Of course it did. Who says it didn't because I couldn't see it?”
― Gillian Marchenko, Still Life: A Memoir of Living Fully with Depression

“Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal,” says Albert Camus.”
― Gillian Marchenko, Still Life: A Memoir of Living Fully with Depression

“The healing is the testimony: I’m screwed up and guess what, God loves me anyway. Although I often find myself entrenched in darkness, I crawl toward light.”
― Gillian Marchenko, Still Life: A Memoir of Living Fully with Depression

“I’ve come to accept the reality that as a chronically depressed person, I can be in two states of mind at the same time. I can live life and also fight my thoughts and emotions to keep the darkness at bay. If the darkness starts to cover me like a thick black blanket, I scratch and fight to get out from under it.”
― Gillian Marchenko, Still Life: A Memoir of Living Fully with Depression

“I may not be the best mom. I may not even get back to being the average mother I once claimed to be. But I'm here. I'm getting back up. I'm not leaving. And I'm the mom God ordained for these fours souls, and therefore I am their best mom.”
― Gillian Marchenko, Still Life: A Memoir of Living Fully with Depression