Brian James > Quotes

“There aren't any rules to running away from your problems. No checklist of things to cross off. No instructions. Eeny, meeny, pick a path and go. That's how my dad does it anyway because apparently there's no age limit to running away, either. He wakes up one day, packs the car with everything we own, and we hit the road. Watch all the pretty colors go by until he finds a town harmless enough to hide in. But his problems always find us. Sometimes quicker than others. Sometimes one month and sometimes six. There's no rule when it comes to that, either. Not about how long it takes for the problems to catch up with us. Just that they will—that much is a given. And then it's time to run again to a new town, a new home, and a new school for me.

But if there aren't any rules, I wonder why it feels the same every time. Feels like I leave behind a little bit of who I was in each house we've left empty. Scattering pieces of me in towns all over the place. A trail of crumbs dotting the map from everywhere we've left to everywhere we go. And they don't make any pictures when I connect dots. They are random like the stars littering the sky at night.”
― Brian James, Zombie Blondes

“My memories are like a shuffled deck of cards, each one coming up at random.”
― Brian James, Life is But a Dream

“Because there’s nothing wrong with me,” Alec says. “You know what is? Our society is so screwed up from top to bottom, everything about it, that it’s become impossible to fix. It’s easier to change people and make them fit into something that’s broken. Know what I mean?”
― Brian James, Life is But a Dream

“And that is when I know....that is when I understand that it's better to feel the ache inside me like demons scratching at my heart than it is to feel numb the way a dead body feels when you touch it. It's better to wait for the beautiful things...to stare at them for as long as they last..to hold on as tight as you can before they disappear. And it might hurt so bad inside...but it's better to wait for the next beautiful thing than never look for any again.”
― Brian James, Perfect World

“When did life start being something you had to work at and not something that just is?”
― Brian James, Pure Sunshine

“Some memories are presents that I'm unable to unwrap over and over.”
― Brian James, Life is But a Dream

“I should never have loved him . . I should never love anyone because it ends up being worse than being alone.”
― Brian James, Perfect World

“Man, it really gets me down. When everything's exhausted there's nothing left. The rate I was running, it wouldn't be long. Then what? What's next? What's the score? I can't handle the rest of my life suspended in boredom. Such a chore! Gonna burn out because I can't stand to fade away. Get it all in fast and get out. No turning back now. It's just the way it is, the way I need to be.”
― Brian James, Pure Sunshine

“Sometimes it is easier when you can't see your hands or your arms. Sometimes it's easier when you don't try. Because it's too hard to talk when you are trying . . too hard to say what you feel inside.”
― Brian James, Perfect World

“Puberty flicked a switch inside of them and dreams were replaced by hormones and college prep courses and varsity sports while I continued to look for faeries in the woods behind my house.”
― Brian James, Life is But a Dream

“The boy I used to know as Thomas Merker has been erased--replaced with a personality programmed by television and commercials to act a certain way.”
― Brian James, Life is But a Dream

“The last great escape. I was done gambling, done betting on a ship that would never come in. I would cash in my chips while I was ahead. I didn't want to suffer the growing old, didn't want to wait until my memory went. It was all so tiresome. I would just go out in a blaze of glory before the parasites of sadness got at me and made me bitter. After that's the American way: take your own life before everything else takes it from you.”
― Brian James, Pure Sunshine

“We have to find a place that is ours. The doctors keep trying to make us fit into this world, but they're wrong. We need a world that fits us.”
― Brian James, Life is But a Dream

“Yeah? How was I?"
"You were . . . kind of perfect" I say
"Kind of?" Alec throws his hands out to his sides, pretending to be offended. "Can I try again? I'd hate for my reputation to be spoiled by a 'kind of.”
― Brian James, Life is But a Dream

“that I'm not scared every time I open my eyes and see the world staring at me”
― Brian James

“If you treat every day as a battle against yourself, then you can succeed every day and be the victor.”
― Brian James, Self Esteem: 4 Books in 1: How to Improve Your Social Skills, Successful People Habits, Self-Confidence, Social Intelligence and Secrets to Better Yourself

“- Você é popular agora, pode esquecê-lo. Deixe que ele suma da sua vida, Ok?
- É, pode ser. É apenas uma velha mania.
- Como roer as unhas? - Meredith pergunta, mudando de assunto para que eu comece a esquecer Lukas.”
― Brian James, Zombie Blondes

“I close my eyes.. think of how beautiful it would be if someone came to find me.. if I froze in the snow with angel wings pressed into the ground.. my lips a pretty purple-blue.. my eyelids pink and my skin pale.. how beautiful they would say I was.. how perfect.”
― Brian James, Perfect World

“My dad believes that bad disguises itself - that danger hides. I think it's the opposite. The truly horrible things about the world are always reaching out for you.”
― Brian James, Life is But a Dream

“would be if someone came to find me.. if I froze in the snow with angel wings pressed into the ground.. my lips a pretty purple-blue.. my eyelids pink and my skin pale.. how beautiful they would say I was.. how perfect.”
― Brian James, Perfect World

“I'm glad I was sent here after all" Alec says.
"Why?"
"Because you're here”
― Brian James, Life is But a Dream

“Maybe that's where we're supposed to meet then" I say.
"What do you mean? When?"
"I mean, maybe that's where our perfect world begins”
― Brian James, Life is But a Dream