Misha Horne > Quotes

“Trying to figure out where you fit while you’re living in a vanilla world is brutal. You basically never see yourself reflected back at you anywhere but porn. So your whole identity is super sexualized from the start. Which is so fucking weird, especially when you’re a kid. If you ever see any kind of Dom type on tv, ten times out of ten, people aren’t just making fun of them, they’re actually saying this person is a sadist and also a psychopath or a predator or a murderer, and they’re huge and scary and dressed in leather and latex and carrying whips. All that’s even available is warped caricatures of what vanilla people think kink is. It’s gross, and it makes it so hard to actually find your identity and not be ashamed when it’s just all bad rep written for shock value by people who have no idea what they’re talking about.”
― Misha Horne, Hot Mess

“Things you need aren't bonus material, they're the bare minimum. You don't have to go without something that's part of you just because it's not the most common thing in the world. You don't deserve to. Someone should be spoiling you and spanking you and making you really fucking happy. All of it. If that's what you want. You deserve to feel good just like everybody else.”
― Misha Horne, Hot Mess

“I like spending time with people I like, I guess. I don’t like very many people.”
“People in books aren’t real,” I pointed out.
He shrugged. “They’re real when you’re reading. That’s close enough.”
― Misha Horne, Comfort Me, Daddy

“It looked like a goddamn Italian restaurant. Not that I'd ever been to an Italian restaurant. But I'd seen that dog movie.”
― Misha Horne, Comfort Me, Daddy

“He looked up at me and taught me a lesson in about one second of silence. It didn't make a damn bit of difference who was doing the standing and who was doing the sitting. He was towering over me, his dark eyes letting me know that he was in charge. That he had all the power.”
― Misha Horne, Not So Smart

“At least most of the time. It made it easier when he was genuinely interested in everything I said, even the dumb stuff.”
― Misha Horne, Away Games

“I pushed myself up off the floor, grabbing the boxes and dishes and cups, trying to make myself look busy instead of terrified.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“I can sense it on you right now, you know. Paycheck to paycheck, that’s a disease, and you have it. You’re literally worthless. And people can tell. It’s why you’ll never be happy. It’s why you’ll never be able to make anyone happy. Because deep down, probably not even that deep, you know you don’t deserve it.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“Point is, there are lots of ways to do things. And if you can have an honest conversation with the person you’re doing them with, then you can tweak things until you’re comfortable and then you can get exactly what you want.”
― Misha Horne, Hot Mess

“I wanted to say something good, something better, something real. I wanted to say I know what it’s like to lose yourself. To feel alone, like nothing and no one in the world can touch you, even if you want to be touched. I wanted to say you’re the only person who’s ever touched me the way I want, and I’m scared to death of ruining you.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“Him dismantling me piece by piece until I’d actually started just handing parts of me over.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“It wasn’t something I craved too often. Never like I wanted it now. I’d never craved being filled up with someone else just so I could be more of them and less of myself.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“When things are always one way and there’s not much you can do about it, you just don’t bother wasting your time thinking about how they could be different.”
― Misha Horne, Away Games

“I hadn’t ever had this reference point before. Being trapped somewhere I wanted to be. Held in place by someone I didn’t want to let me go. I didn’t feel confined at all with him holding me down. I felt… free.”
― Misha Horne, Comfort Me, Daddy

“As I ran my tongue over his warm, naked body, his dark hair and clean, wet skin seemed to fill all of my senses somehow. I tasted things I couldn't possibly - power and strength and masculinity. They were concepts, not flavors, but I knew I tasted them, and I licked them up greedily, lapping at his body like a dog.”
― Misha Horne, Not So Smart

“It wasn’t really fair to love sleeping and hate sleeping so much at the same time. But what was fair.”
― Misha Horne, Comfort Me, Daddy

“knowing absolutely was not half the battle and whoever said that was so full of shit. Knowing was just a mosquito in your brain you couldn’t squash, that you had to keep waving away when it got close enough to piss you off.”
― Misha Horne, Away Games

“Feels good.”
“Hurting feels good?”
“When you do it. When you put your mark on me that way. Make sure I hear you. Make sure I listen. Like you left part of you on me. In me. So I know where I belong.”
― Misha Horne, Comfort Me, Daddy

“I’m not good at talking,” I told him, and he nodded.
“That’s okay. It’s hard. Especially when people don’t listen like they should. But I will.”
― Misha Horne, Comfort Me, Daddy

“My wires weren’t just crossed, they were tangled up like a box of Christmas lights, all knots and broken glass, blinking and shorting out with every move I made.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“Every sound that came out of my mouth was so embarrassing I wanted to punch it.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“I gave my reflection another onceover, pretending I wasn’t gauging hotness levels because that did not fucking matter. Still, I ran my hand through my hair trying for wet rock god and achieved it in three tries. What a fucking asshole.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“If slapping and sparring with someone who was so damn good at pushing my buttons I wanted to choke them counted as romance, then fuck, maybe I was a romantic after all.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“He was already everywhere. In my bed, in my sheets, sprawled on my couch— he was a ghost before he even left, a memory in the present,”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“I jammed it down in my gut alongside all the other guilt I was already packing, put on my rock star face, and pretended I didn’t hate every damn thing about myself.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“He looked up at me and taught me a lesson in about one second of silence. It didn't make a damn bit of difference who was doing the standing and who was doing the sitting. He was towering over me, his dark eyes letting me know that he was in charge. That he had all the power”
― Misha Horne, Not So Smart

“On whose fucking authority had I become interested in spanking? I tried taking stock of my brain and my gut and my dick, but nobody felt like stepping forward.”
― Misha Horne, Working out the Kinks

“It’s not your fault. Things are hard for you, aren’t they? It’s hard to listen. Hard to remember. Hard to keep up when you’re so tired and worried all the time.”
― Misha Horne, Hurt Me, Daddy

“You’re so in denial, you’re in… Egypt or whatever.”
― Misha Horne, Old School Discipline

“I’ve watched you come to school worn down year after year and no one ever say a word. I’ve watched your clothes get too small and your shoes get too thin, and nobody care. I’ve watched you try like hell to master shit in class and get halfway there and get no credit for doing your best. I’ve seen you get cocky during football season, and I’ve seen you withdraw when it’s over and you don’t fit in anymore. I’ve seen how much you need to be taken care of.”
― Misha Horne, Hurt Me, Daddy