Alfa Holden > Quotes

“There is lonely, and there is alone time. I have found that both have etched character upon my soul.”
― Alfa

“I never needed a Man. I needed a Viking. I needed someone who wasn't afraid of my strengths, or of my needs. I chose wrong... in the past. I thought I had to find someone who could put up with my hunger for life. But I was so damn wrong. I needed a Viking. I needed someone who would admire all the things about me that tepid men were intimidated by.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“She's fire...but she will not burn you. She knows all too well how it feels to live with ashes.”
― Alfa

“Her mind is a mess, and she has no intention of cleaning today.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“Lost is not a place. It's a soul in paralysis... waiting to feel moved.”
― alfa

“I had no regrets for those that had let me go. You see, I wanted the one that couldn't.”
― Alfa

“Your ability to make me feel like I was less than I was, took awhile to recover from. But after ripping my own self worth to shreds for so long, I realized that I wasn't less just because I was more than your inexperienced hands could handle.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“They will talk about you and it won't always be good. You won't even know them but they will critique you - and judge you - and everything you stand for. Their words will cut through your heart-strings and make you question the hopes and dreams that have gnawed your soul since birth.

I warn you, because I believe your unique gift of expression needs to be shared. Resist cowering down and holding back for fear of rejection. Spread those creative wings and create. But, prepare yourself. Because naysayers are not a possibility, they are a guarantee.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“How to raise sons who respect women:
Never give them the opportunity to see you disrespect yourself.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“You are not disposable. I know you feel that way when people choose to walk out of your life, but their emptiness causes space. And that vacant area of your life is desperately crying out for the one meant to take up residence. Let the angry tenant go. You don't want someone staying because you've begged and pleaded for their occupancy. You want the one who sees your quaking heart and says: "Honey I'm home".”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“I want you. I want you inside and out. The parts you cover with laughter. The depth you shrug off with indifference. I want you. I want you to take me to the place you've hidden your heart. I want to walk by your side on this journey. You're worth it. We're worth it. Because... I want you.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“I know my worth.
I’ve paid dearly
for every ounce of it.”
― Alfa

“Some poets write pages upon pages because their hearts have a song to sing and their melodies cannot be contained in a single stanza... and I find myself typing out a quote because my soul is still gasping for breath, and all the words form a single sentence: I miss us.”
― Alfa

“Love yourself. That kind of love can get you through anything.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“Let them howl. Let the wolves pant. You have evolved. You were not fashioned to run in a pack, or to be defined by the opinions of those who wish to limit your creativity. Let them howl. Let the wolves pant.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“It may happen once or perhaps several times during your lifetime, but you'll meet a 'soulmate'. The bond will be instantaneous. They'll be a perfect fit for the empty indention your heart has for rent, and you'll almost think you 'wished' them into existence. One touch... and every pent-up emotion you have buried, will flood your aching heart. The magic is never more apparent that when you realize each of your souls are a perfect template of each other.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“She's been through more hell than you'll ever know. But that's what gives her beauty an edge... You can't touch a woman who can wear pain like the grandest of diamonds around her neck.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“... I don't know what I feel anymore, or maybe it's that I don't know HOW to feel anymore. I question every move I make, every breath I take, and every flutter of an eyelash. I've developed a twitch from always being on guard. I'm alert at night, and numb during the day, but I'm always ready. Maybe, I can intercept tragedy from striking again.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“I'm not afraid of anything anymore. I've found out Ghosts don't hide under my bed or in my closets either. They exist in plain sight - everyday; Conjured up by 'our song' playing on the radio. By the mailman's blue eyes that are so like yours I could get utterly lost in them. They come as raindrops, kissing my skin... the way you used to. Ghosts are everywhere.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“I'm not simple. Loving me will never be easy. I bring every travesty that's rocked me- with me, to the table. I won't pretend to be something I'm not, and I don't expect you to be blemish free either. That's much too boring of an existence. A past means you've lived, you've prevailed. My ears are open. My heart is accepting. I want to know how you are. I want to know what made you... and I want to feel free to share the 'not so pretty' parts of me, with you.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“He kissed her good morning like she was the reason sun decided to shine.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“I don't compete against other women. To uplift others means I'm never looking down on them. I applaud their strength, and I remind them that we never know how strong we are until we are tested. And this life will test you... But it's not a competition. I want us all to make it.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“I hurt in places that you brought back from the dead. Now I have to lay them to rest again.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“Some people are so accepting of mediocrity, that they think that living a passion filled life is a fairytale. Prove them wrong.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“Love does not pay attention to timetables or knock when it is convenient for you. True love shows up unexpectedly, bags fully packed, daring you to offer it a place to stay.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“The reality is we don’t see her when she finds her quiet place and lets her shoulders fall. We don’t see her scrub her face and find herself unrecognizable in the mirror.”
― Alfa, She Wears Pain Like Diamonds: Poems

“Staying Strong
When you acknowledge pain, you validate its impact on your life.
There will be those who will try to disregard your hurt or downplay its intensity.
Try as you may, you will never be able to make them understand how it affected you.
How it severed your confidence.
How it reshaped your thinking.
How you spiraled downward into someone you couldn't recognize anymore.
They will not understand how those hands held and hurt you until you were immobile and helpless to reach out.
They wrongly believe that anxiety and depression are self-inflicted.”
― Alfa Holden, She Wears Pain Like Diamonds: Poems

“How do you know they aren't the one? At the first sight of total disregard for your hurt, your gut will feel uneasy. I'm reminding you to listen up.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“It was in the words he didn't say... that I found all the answers to my questions.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths

“I have waltzed with wolves and howled at the moon. But my heart will always remember the slow-dance that ended much too soon.”
― Alfa H, Abandoned Breaths