Russ Hudson

“If you're really doing it it doesn't come out that way. I used to tell people 'Going to the higher levels does not necessarily mean you're going to feel better'. You might get more present and find out you're enraged. You might find out that your heart has been really broken and you finally, finally pay the bill and sit with your sadness. [The levels of health] are not prescriptive in that way...

All development is uncomfortable, period. [Interviewer: Say that again for the Nine.] All development is uncomfortable. You want to learn a new language - it's not going to be easy. You want to work out and get fit, its going to be uncomfortable. You want to get in touch with what's really going on in your psychology and your emotions, it's not going to be comfortable. Presence is not a good mood. Let me just say that again: Presence is not a good mood. It's not a happy ending. This is a complete misunderstanding. It is the capacity to be awake to whatever experience you're having. And I've had to really slow that down 'cause, y'know, it can look or sound like something that it's not.”
― Russ Hudson