Patience is not my virtue. Flat out, no way around it, I have always been an impatient person. Since my spiritual awakening in 2012, I have artfully dodged having to be more patient in every way imaginable. I’ve always had a knack for personal manifestation, becoming accustomed to easily bringing positive change into my life. And I came of age in a technology career in Silicon Valley, an extremely fast-paced industry where patience is an unknown word. In short, I had no reason to be patient. I assumed patience was for other people, or for people that didn’t know how to make things happen in their own life. Boy, was I wrong!

Fast forward to the present, and the series of challenges I’ve faced in my personal life to cultivate patience. I’ve started two part-time businesses with my partner, published my first book, have a second one slated to hit shelves within a month. I also have two manuscripts that just require a little polishing before they too are ready to share with the world. My years in technology taught me how to always keep things moving, but looking back now in the throes of impatience, I also had to learn how to release and just let the universe do its work. I assumed I would sell thousands of books immediately, that our businesses would grow exponentially, and that I would somehow struggle to keep pace with the future I manifested. But the universe had other plans. Instead, I’ve learned how to be grateful for all those that have read or are interested in my book. I’m putting myself out there more, connecting with other people that hunger for a new message of modern spirituality. And I’m learning to not be so hard on myself. When we want something, it is hard at times to give ourselves credit for everything else we have done, instead focused on the distant goal that we have trained our vision on. Humility is intimately tied to patience. Sometimes the universe needs to know you are able to conquer your ego before your ideal future can come to meet you.

Patience is an art form. It is a frequency of love. Sometimes you just have to take a deep breath, and bring yourself back to the now, to what you do have in your life, and be grateful for all that you already have. This energy of gratitude can lead you to patience more readily. You start to see that everything is as it should be, and everything will blossom and flower in its own time; not your own version of when things should happen.

This can especially true of finding a job. With the New Year I pledged to bring myself back to work, while not forsaking the important creations I have already birthed. Instead, I’m learning how to nurture myself and my work, while still recognizing how much of me I can still do out in the world. Finding a job can be intimidating work, especially if patience is not your virtue. I’ve had to pull back a number of times and remind myself, “Hey, you are a valuable, you have incredible work experience, the right thing will line up, in the right time.” So while some rejections come through, the opportunities that do line up are exciting me. And I’m learning to trust that the right thing will happen in the right time. For a job. For my books. And for the life I most want to live.

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