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xD

That's an understatement. ;u;

Something on how to spot a toxic relationship, platonic or intimate? Or even maybe familial?

Birdsong231 ԑ̮̑ঙ Disturbed pigeon wrote: "Turning twenty next month and it's giving me a mild existential crisis. And it's caused by the word and plural of "decades."
I'm still mentally 17, I cannot adult yet-"

Uuugghhh, I'm officially 20...
Peopld my age aren't exaggerating when they say they feel old. Enjoy being younger than 18 while you can...

Hhhhnnnggggg my depo shot wore out and I remember my thankfulness again.
It hurts so bad that I wanna scream... We think that the reason why my periods are so bad is because we think there's a cyst on my ovaries. I really want ti get that checked oit, but that means I have to have an ultrasound... I hate ultrasounds. Too much water makes me feel like vomiting.

IM REALLY NOT THE ONLY ONE?
I get stares from older men. So many stares that it's made me feel diagusting about my body.

Maybe something for backwards body disphoria? I dislike that I have a model-worthy body, and I want to know if there will ever be someone who feels the same... I want a place to rant about moments when I feel the need to let out how much it bothers me, and the reasons why. I have...bad experiences, and I want to share the consequences of having a model-like body...

hnnngggg I'm so jealous of y'all and I feel really old compared to everyone... Am I... Am I considered a fossil by kids now?

Turning twenty next month and it's giving me a mild existential crisis. And it's caused by the word and plural of "decades."
I'm still mentally 17, I cannot adult yet-

I constantly crave fast food. Like, I am 100% in love with anything Wendy's and Burger King. AND CANDY. SO MUCH SUGAR AND THAT UNHEALTHY STUFF AND, AND- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH
it's all so painfulllllll

I was actually planning to suggest both of those-

HELLOOOOOO
YOUR LOCAL PIGEON QUEEN HAS ARRIVED

I am Birdsong, or irl, Angelina, but I'd prefer to be called by an online nickname. I leave Anf and Angie to my closest friends, when it doesn't feel toi weird for me.

I am, unfortunately, legally an adult abd turning 20 in just around 35-45 days... I haven't counted yet... My birthday is June 19th. I am having an existential crisis over the plural "decades". D E C A D E S . *screams*

ANYWHO
My pronouns are she/her/hers and I identify as female. I am, obviously, born female. xD

Im
Not sure what else to put in
I woke up an hour ago, which was 2am
Im wide awake, but my brain is still in the process of being able to comprehend thinking. xD

OH MY GOD, I- IM SO SORRY FOR SUCH A MASSIVE POST-

I'm single and I'm happy about it! I felt tied down in my last two relationships. I need a lot of freedom and space. Both of them were a bit too clingy for me. ;u;

It also didn't work out because all three of us hace mental health issues and awful communication problems. My first was incredibly open, and we're still friends to this day! He's actually one of my bestest of friends!

The other two... neither of them trusted me enough to give back, especially my most recent. I opened up my heart to the point he easily could have put me back in a deeper depression. Back to the very start. (I've got severe depression.) I gave, and gave, and gave...but he never properly returned. He only told me the same stories whenever I broke down and mentioned how unfair he was being to me... I had to find out from a different person that he has extremely violent thoughts. I literally have had extremely violent thoughts in the past myself, and I even mentioned that. I constantly had throughts of committing mass murder. Of destorying the lives of people I hated. Taking out my anger on my loved ones. I'm thankful I never acted on those thoughts.

My second never trusted me with his emotions, either, even though I mentioned, like, a thousand times that I myself have extremely bad trust issues that I easily hide to those people who don't truly know me. Because of him not trusting me enough with his feelings and not trusting me enough to explain his mental health issues, he didn't contact me for three months. The day he finally responded to me, I called him and explained that our mental health was too severe for dating at the time. We both cried, and...never spoke again. I only deleted him from my contacts a few months ago. We broke up five years ago.

Now, with my third (the most recent), we're thankfully still friends. I broke uo with him on new years of this year. I needed to start fresh, and actually go through with my promise of taking care if myself first and foremost. It's true that you need to learn to love yourself before you can truly love someone else. My third helped me realize that after we both completely forgot our anniversary.
It breajs my heart that he has admitted that he's still deeply in love with me... I haven't felt the same way in ten months... I've told him that I fell out if love a while before the break up. I told him ir gad nothing to do with him, it's just that I was no longer had any romantic feelings. It was a while later that I finally mentioned that was officially questioning my sexuality. I know my feelings now, but the nane does not exist. I'm working on coining it myself. I also need help explaning it properly in a way that others understand. I understand tge way that I wrote it, but I dudnt realize it was still confusing to her. After about an hour of me attempting to explain in some sort of way. I wanted to type tgat all diwn, the way she finally grasped what I meant, vut I've completely forgotten. ;A; I'm gonna have to catch her atrention at some point again and see if she still remembers what I mean. xD It's extremely complex, so I need help explaining in a way that others can understand.
This can alsi work as a gender, actually! I'm gonna coin a gender version after I figure out a name for the orientation.