Sumayyah’s Comments (group member since Jul 01, 2025)

Sumayyah’s comments from the Journaling group.

plsss be okay 😭 for like the 4th time i gtg now, i reallllllllly hope everything goes welllllll, byee <333 😭

Ophelia ˚࿔ wrote: "I haven’t seen a doctor yet but I’ve been here for about 2 hours so far"

oh noooooooooooooooo uhhhhhhhh 😭😭😭😭😭

Ophelia ˚࿔ wrote: "Should I go back to the er? I’ve only had one oxygen drop to 85 since but like I have weird blue discolouration of my jaw area… and I feel weird and have had neck pain, plus I never saw a doctor wh..."

Ophelia ˚࿔ wrote: "I’m in a room off of the regular er area since they let me wait here (I have severe emetophobia so it’s hard to be in the normal area with the people), and I’ve been waiting for about 10-20 minutes…"

ohmygosh...im so sorry, i reallllly really hope ur okay and get better 😭

Ophelia ˚࿔ wrote: "I love how I’m talking to people on here as if it’s a normal day and I’m not in the hospital"

wait...ava? 😭

Ava, so i saw the whole convo and wht u said on badass queens n monarchs gc and I know ur heart and I know u'd NEVER try to hurt anyone intentionally.
ik it was a misunderstanding and u were tryna overexplain urself. I didn't see the full convo on whichever group that what u said was on. but ur genuinely such a sweet person, so yh i KNOW u didnt mean that, whtever it was.
Dw im gonna try talking to nora, and try explaining tht u didnt mean it <3
(also wht group was this on?)

ofcc! <333 and u're honestly 1 of the nicest ppl ik aswl 💖💖

~Mila~ wrote: "Ava ౨ৎ wrote: "Oh no what do you think you have if you don’t mind me asking?"

Cancer"

omygosh mila!!!!!!!! i rllly rlly rlly hope ur okay, and everything gets better 4 u and im so srry <3333

(yess i 100% agree w evrything mila said)
and pls ava no, u are NOT a monster. u are not horrible. u r kind, caring, and thoughtful, and Istg I’m not just saying that. I’ve seen how much u care abt other people, how much luv and support u pour into evryone else, even when u're hurting urself. That is NOT smth a horrible person could EVER EVER do.

ik everything feels heavy and unbearable rn. u feel u're stuck in a nightmare u can't escape. But pls PLSSS hold on. This ISN'T forever. Even if it doesn’t feel like it now, there will be a time where u can breathe again without feeling crushed.

and u HAVE to knw the world is smm better with u in it. Even on ur hardest days. u r needed ava. u re loved.u are so important. Not for what u do, or how strong u r, but simply because u’re YOU.

So just stay. pls. get through this. ik u cn. ur like so strong bro u cn do this. Pls. Jus one breath at a time, ok. I’m here. we'er all here 4 u. And we re not letting u go.

u got this!!!!
goodnightt anaya! <3333333

awh ur welcome <3

awh im sooooo glad and happy 4 u xd, ur welcome <3333

Ok so u did ask for help. u did try to speak up at the doctors. u did try to find ur own coping strategies. But they keep blocking u , not bc u don’t deserve help, BUT becuse they’re scared. And instead of being honest abt their fear, they r controlling everything around u.
and still tht’s not care. That’s harm, even if they don’t realise it.
And the thing tht happened with ur mom? Ik that guilt is crushing u. But pls hear this, u didn’t hurt her. u showed her u’re hurting. That’s not the same thing. Her tears don’t mean u’ve failed her or smth, they mean she finally saw something real, smth she can’t ignore.
So heres wht u do:
U tell the truth. Again and again, if u hv to. Not just the tears or the silence or scratchin, but the ACTUAL truth.
u tell ur mum “I’m not safe mentally. I need real support. I need to talk to someone who isn’t u. I need to be allowed to speak at my own appointments. I need my privacy, or I’ll break even more.”
And even if ur parents won’t listen right now, plssss don’t stop talking. Keep telling someone. someone who’s trained to actually help?
And if they blame Goodreads say this: “This is where I feel seen. This is where I’ve found ppl who listen.”
U need this space and help ava. This is ur life. This is ur brain. This is ur pain. and it all matters.

Yesssss charisss, couldn't agree more!!! <33

And Mila u bein here? Tht means something. the fact u even typed those words out that’s NOT weakness. Tht’s braver. U were never meant to be perfect, u were meant to be real. U’re meant to STAY.
u think u ruin everything? No. U light things up without even noticing. U hv no idea how many people r so damn glad u exist. I am. And I’m not saying tht to make u feel better, I’m saying tht bc it’s TRUE.
yk i get the feeling of when u wnna scream but there’s no sound, wanna cry but the tears don’t come out, just this awful numb sadness mixed with anger at urself for feeling so broken all the time. It’s exhausting and it feels like u’re drowning in ur own head and nobody even knows.
But u cant give up. not yet. do not give in. Just keep going. u cn do it.
So plss, even if it feels impossible, just hold on. Stay with us! Cry, scream, rest, do whtever u need to do, but do NOT disappear. The world’s not done with u yet. Youre not done yet.

ok... i hope u mean tht 😁

ofcc, u’re welcome 💗 but pls just try yh? 4 ur own good xd. 💕 💕

oh ava im sry. the imploding part is like so real tho. Bc I know that feeling. When everything’s silent but inside it’s like u’re screaming without a sound. And nobody sees it. And ur just slowly being like eaten away, crumbling., and breaking.
But ava, tht quiet kind of hurting? It’s the most dangerous kind. And I’m begging u, don’t keep carrying it like this. just bc u’re quiet now doesn’t mean u’re okay. Just bc ur pain is hidden doesn’t mean it isn’t serious.
I know it’s terrifying, but Ava pls go up to ur mum. Tell her anywy even if u think she won’t get it. Even if it feels like u’ll fall apart trying to explain. Go up to her and look her in the eye and say “I’m not okay! I’m still not okay! I’ve just gotten better at hiding it. And I need help pls.” That one sentence could change everything.
Bc mayb she doesn’t see it yet. But that doesn’t mean she doesn’t care. Sometimes ppl just don’t realise wht’s behind the quiet. But if u tell her the truth, not what u think she wants to hear, but the truth, she might finally see it. She might finally fight for u the way u’ve been fighting silently all this time.
Also the way u’re feeling now? It won’t last forever, even if ur brain swears it will. There’s more 4 u. More good days. more healing. More ppl who will actually see u. But u’ve gotta take that step! Please!
Dont think ur doin this bc u’re giving up or smth, but becuse u’re fighting to stay!
Girl this aint weakness or anythin. U r so strong for still being here, for still breathing through this weight. But u don’t have to do this alone anymore. U rlly shouldnt
There is more than jus pain. But u have to let someone into the dark with u. Let them care. Let them help u find ur way back out. Pleass. 💗
Pls try bc the right words to the right person at right time, they cn might change EVERYTTHING. So sttart with ur mum. Even if ur voice shakes. Even if you cry. Just say it. U have to be heard.

no ppl would rather worry, wht happened ava? r they not takin u srsly or smth?

yup

but like mayb u should start eating a bit more atleast. migh thelp

oh dang i hope everythin goes well 4 u