“I tried to think about my dreams, where I wanted to be, what I really wanted, but I think to know what you want, you have to know what you don't want, and all I could figure out was that I really wished life hadn't contacted me, so I could have continued on the path I was going on. Life had complicated things. Life had tried to make things move on when I was perfectly content. He called it a rut, but he moved me from that place already, by merely by pointing out that I was there, and I would never be able to go back.”