“But even just out there in the world, people – they- they stare. They look at two guys, when they hold hands. Or when they kiss. Gay guys are all – big and they're loud. And artsy and – I don't want any of that. I want a normal life that I built on my own. Not because of my dad. Not because of my .. heart. I just want to be left alone. (Wipes a tear away.) I wish there was a way to be with a guy, but... be straight.”