“I wish I could feel your warmth, as easily
as I feel his. But I don't. I feel fear. I hear fear telling me I'm

a body, that's all. & the boy I love is a body. & bodies die. No
other world, no return to this world in another form. (Annihilation.)

It isn't that I didn't think these were the facts before. It's now,
he's here. I have to try harder. Believe the facts could be

at least a little wrong. Please, something. Some
magic, real as this ripe life with him.”