“And I held him, and I walked him over to the window, and I showed him the world outside. And I said, “Okay, buddy, it’s a big scary world out there, but I’ll always be there for you.” And I told him “I love you,” over and over. And I said, “I don’t want to do this,” over and over. And then there was nothing else to say, and I was just holding him in silence for as long as I could.”