“Once I was so frustrated by an unhealthy aspect of my personality that I knelt on the floor and begged God to change me as quickly as Jesus change the man ... After an hour, waiting, I rose from the floor, the same man as before ... Why wouldn't God heal me as quickly as Jesus did the man in the synagogue? ... The spiritual director pointed to a tree outside of his window, "See that tree? ... in the fall it will be red ... and no one sees it change (from green)" ... Conversion happens most often in a slow, deliberate, and mysterious way ... often you cannot see the change in yourself.”