“A few hours later Ez found me in the basement with a loaded gun in my hands. When he approached me, I lifted it to my forehead and told him not to take another step or I’d pull the trigger. He did but not before telling me, “If you die, I die, Lias. It’s just us. We’re the beginning and the end. We already lost Lucas and I’m barely hanging on. If I lose you too, I won’t make it. If you die I die.”