“My entire life, I had been hyper-focused on not letting myself down, not allowing myself to fall between the cracks and end up with nothing because I grew up with nothing. And now it was so clear to me that I was doing the exact opposite, allowing that fear to cripple me. I wasn’t allowing myself to enjoy life. I was just making sure I had one, which wasn’t enough. That was obvious to me now. I guess it took almost losing my life to realize what little life I had.”