“My problem was, I couldn’t force myself to do the things I wanted to do; couldn’t make myself start writing any more than I could make myself stop drinking. Some self-sabotaging mechanism in my personality derailed my every attempt to make positive changes in my life.
In order to start making those changes, I reasoned, I would have to undergo some kind of pre-change change; become the kind of person who could readily make such changes. But how was I even supposed to make that initial, pre-change change? Let alone the many incremental micro-changes I would first have to make on the way to making a pre-pre-change change?”