“There is a difference between death and pain. To me, death is not so much a punishment as a passage to another realm. It can be painless. My thoughts of murdering others were not as cold-hearted as you would believe. More than anything, I just wanted to ensure they were out of my path for the foreseeable future. That is all. But . . . pain? Trauma? No. I would not inflict that on anyone.” He paused. “Unless they deserved it.”