“I was starting to realize that maybe I didn't think I deserved a full life, an easy life, a life like anyone else's. Maybe that was why I'd moved to New York in the first place: New York, especially when you were new and all alone, was most definitely not easy. My tiny room, my tiny paycheck, fit tidily into my tiny life. If I made myself as small as possible, whatever had taken my mom and my sister wouldn't find me.”