“i find it so bizarre that i occupy space, and that i am seen by other people. i feel like i am falling through space and Eleanor just threw me a rose. Its such a sweet, pointless gesture. It would be less devastating to fall through space alone, without someone else falling next to me. whenever someone does something nice for me, I feel intensely aware of how strange and sad it is to know someone.
she beams. "of couse i remember the things you say.”