“I remember asking Rayya . . . if there was anything that somebody could have said or done back in the day, that might’ve convinced her to quit drugs sooner. She replied, “The only thing that might’ve made me clean sooner would’ve been if every person in my life he cut me off sooner. Because as long as I still had anyone left out there who I could bullshit and use, or borrow money from, or crash with, or who would listen to my sob story, there was no reason for me to quit. It wasn’t until I had burned every bridge, and there was nobody left, who would even pick up the phone when I called, that I really had to face myself and decide whether I wanted to live or die. But I had to do that alone, when there was nobody left to manipulate. If I’ve gotten to that place sooner, I might’ve quit sooner.”