“But as I gain independence I remember how the rabbis warned that one good deed leads to another and one sin leads to hell. With each step I take away from Torah practice, I can feel the downward slide and fall from grace. My God consciousness is fading. I have grown apart from Him. I understand now why the laws are so strict, to keep the Creator at the foremost of one’s thoughts and deeds, bringing Him into every aspect of life. But I am becoming desensitized to holiness and sanctity.”