“We all have varying degrees of these feelings, but I think when you have them really acutely, one of the things you're aware of is that it's your job to manage your feelings literally moment to moment. I think it's a little bit like having a twisted ankle where even though I'm sitting here, I'm aware that I'm going to have to stand at the end of this interview, and right around the corner if I'm not careful, these feelings are there and they're gonna take me someplace. They're gonna take me for a ride, to someplace I have no control over. I think you lose control or you get a little less diligent - something overtakes you.”