“i think of that spring morning, just before dawn. how she appeared at my side on the bench. how i felt so suddenly alive with possibility. saw in her a wondrous world, an open hand, a person i knew in my bones would be someone i’d love. how i had no idea. how the not knowing was the most wonderful and terrible thing. maybe i could do it again. imagine her back. live on the roofs and trees of my mind with another her beside me forever. take her mesh hand in mine and this time never let go.”