Ana > Ana's Quotes

“I hate this feeling. Like I'm here, but I'm not. Like someone cares. But they don't. Like I belong somewhere else, anywhere but here, and escape lies just past that snowy window, cool and crisp as the February air.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Crank

“What I know is you can't go back. You can't press delete and re-key your life.”
― Julie Anne Peters, By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

“I don't sleep. All night long I'm wide awake, thinking, Secrets, secrets, secrets. There are secrets in my past no one needs to know. Secrets in my present that might kill Kim and Chip. I don't want to take my secrets with me when I go. When I pass through the light, i want to be free of everything and everyone.”
― Julie Anne Peters, By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

“You can't trust machines. You can't trust people.”
― Julie Anne Peters, By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

“I think about my choice. Either outcome is bleak. If I stay and live through high school, go to college, get a job, what will ever change? This blackness inside will never go away. I don't make friends; I'll always be alone. If I go, at least there's hope of peace. Chance of a new and better life on the other side.”
― Julie Anne Peters, By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

“I knew right then and there nothing was ever going to change. It wouldn't matter if I was tall or short or fat or thin or absent every day. I was a loser from birth.”
― Julie Anne Peters, By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

“But its not funny. Not to people who've been told they're losers their whole lives and believe they will never be anything else.”
― Julie Anne Peters, By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

“People don't change. There are two kinds of people in the world: winners and losers. Black and white. I don't know where gray fits in, or if you can even live in that shade.”
― Julie Anne Peters, By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

“But you'd sell your soul for it, wouldn't you? For one day of feeling beautiful.”
― Julie Anne Peters, By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

“I'm scared. What will tomorrow bring? It has to be better than today. It has to.”
― Julie Anne Peters, By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

“He said something I remember very clearly. "Self esteem is overrated. Anyone will think they color great if enough people tell them. Artificial praise. Down inside, compliments like that are hollow.”
― Albert Borris, Crash Into Me

“I just want to be happy. I want to feel better.”
― Albert Borris, Crash Into Me

“I wonder if it will rain after we die. When you kill yourself, you don't know what happens next, afterward.”
― Albert Borris, Crash Into Me

“Suddenly I grasped what was happening- they were all trying to save me.
I never thought I was worth saving.”
― Albert Borris, Crash Into Me

“Wish you could turn off the questions, turn off the voices, turn off all sound.
Yearn to close out the ugliness, close out the filthiness, close out all light.
Long to cast away yesterday, cast away memory, cast away all jeapordy.
Pray you could somehow stop uncertainty, somehow stop the loathing, somehow stop the pain.
Act on your impulse, swallow the bottle, cut a little deeper, put the gun to your chest.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Impulse

“It [death] chokes you, gags you, but you have to pretend that you're doing just fine, not trembling with this fear because the end is close.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Impulse

“One foot in front of the other, counting tiles on the floor so I don't have to focus the blur of painted smiles, fake faces.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Impulse

“Memory is a tenuous thing. . . .

flickering glimpses, blue
and white, like ancient,
decomposing 16mm film.
Happiness escapes
me there, where faces
are vague and yesterday
seems to come tied
up in ribbons of pain.

Happiness? I look for it intead
in today, where memory
is something I can still
touch, still rely on.
I find it in the smiles
of new friends, the hope
blossoming inside.

My happiest memories
have no place in the
past; they are those
I have yet to create.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Impulse

“My happiest memories have no place in the past; they are those I have yet to create.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Impulse

“Everyone's afraid of everybody else...maybe because we're all afraid of ourselves.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Impulse

“The truth is, I don't have a real clue what love is - how to find it, how to give it. Once upon a time I thought I knew.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Impulse

“It's hard to keep a secret when it's written all over your body... ”
― Julia Hoban, Willow

“...if this is not a happy ending, it is perhaps a happy beginning.”
― Julia Hoban, Willow

“If she let herself, she’d drown in a world of pain”
― Julia Hoban, Willow

“oh brave new world that has such a person in it.”
― Julia Hoban, Willow

“Because even the smallest of words can be the ones to hurt you, or save you.”
― Natsuki Takaya

“Those who hurt others will also hurt themselves.”
― Natsuki Takaya

“When snow melts, what does it become?'
It becomes water, of course'
Wrong! It becomes spring!”
― Natsuki Takaya

“My mom said I was an escapist at heart.... that I preferred imaginary worlds to the real one”
― Amy Plum, Die for Me

“I spent the rest of the day in someone else's story. The rare moments that I put the book down, my own pain returned in burning stabs.”
― Amy Plum, Die for Me