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“A friend said to me, “Hey you need to grow a pair. Grow a pair, Bro.” It’s when someone calls you weak, but they associate it with a lack of testicles. Which is weird, because testicles are the most sensitive things in the world. If you suddenly just grew a pair, you’d be a lot more vulnerable. If you want to be tough, you should lose a pair. If you want to be real tough, you should grow a vagina. Those things can take a pounding.”
― Sheng Wang

“I have a meanness inside me, real as an organ. Slit me at my belly and it might slide out, meaty and dark, drop on the floor so you could stomp on it.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“It was surprising that you could spend hours in the middle of the night pretending things were okay, and know in thirty seconds of daylight that simply wasn't so”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“I felt something loosen in me, that shouldn't have loosened. A stitch come undone.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“I am, I guess, depressed. I guess I've been depressed for about twenty-four years. I can feel a better version of me somewhere in there - hidden behind a liver or attached to a bit of spleen within my stunted, childish body - a Libby that's telling me to get up, do something, grow up, move on. But the meanness usually wins out. (2)”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“I am not angry or sad or happy to see you. I could not give a shit. You don't even ripple.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“Don't be discouraged - every relationship you have is a failure, until you find the right one.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“Coffee goes great with sudden death.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“I should just listen to my gut and then do the opposite.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“You think you know the answer, you’re going to find peace? Like knowing is somehow going to fix you? You think after what happened there’s any peace for you, sweetheart? How about this. Instead of asking yourself what happened, just accept that it happened.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“Everyone who keeps a secret, itches to tell it.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“I have a meanness inside of me, real as an organ.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“When I was fourteen, I thought a lot about killing myself—it’s a hobby today, but at age fourteen it was a vocation. On a September morning, just after school started, I’d gotten Diane’s .44 Magnum and held it, babylike, in my lap for hours. What an indulgence it would be, to just blow off my head, all my mean spirits disappearing with a gun blast, like blowing a seedy dandelion apart. But I thought about Diane, and her coming home to my small torso and a red wall, and I couldn’t do it. It’s probably why I was so hateful to her, she kept me from what I wanted the most.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“Worries find you easily enough without inviting them.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“I felt hollowed out. My mom's death was not useful. I felt a shot of rage at her, and then imagined those last bloody moments in the house, when she realized it had gone wrong, when Debby lay dying, and it was all over, her unsterling life.
My anger gave way to a strange tenderness, what a mother might feel for her child, and I thought, At least she tried. She tried, on that final day, as hard as anyone could have tried.
And I would try to find peace in that.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“The phrase fuck you may not rest on the tip of my tongue, but it’s near. Midtongue.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“Sometimes it feels good to fuck with something. Instead of always being fucked with.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“Draw a picture of my soul, and it’d be a scribble with fangs.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“I appreciate a straightforward apology the way a tone-deaf person enjoys a fine piece of music.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“Whenever I see news stories about children who were killed by their parents, I think: But how could it be? They cared enough to give this kid a name, they had a moment—at least one moment—when they sifted through all the possibilities and picked one specific name for their child, decided what they would call their baby. How could you kill something you cared enough to name?”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“It's an insane, insane crime, a lot of it isn't going to make sense. That's why people are so obsessed with these murders. If they made any sense, they wouldn't really be mysteries, right?”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“I knew you could do it, I knew you could, Libby," she mumbled into my hair, warm and smoky.

"Do what?"

"Try just a little harder.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“I can feel a better version of me somewhere in there—hidden behind a liver or attached to a bit of spleen”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“She talked to me because we had the same chemicals in our blood: shame, anger, greed. Unjustified nostalgia.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“No parents should see their child die, that such an event is like nature spun backward.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“Instead of asking yourself what happened, just accept that it happened. Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the Serenity Prayer.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“It was surprising that you could spend hours in the middle of the night pretending things were OK, and know in thirty seconds of daylight that that simply wasn’t so.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“And I don’t know, you’re at that age, if a bunch of grownups are telling you something or encouraging you, it just … it started to feel real. That Ben had molested me, because otherwise, why were all these adults trying to get me to say he had? And my parents would be all stern: It’s OK to tell the truth. It’s OK to tell the truth. And so you told the lie that they thought was the truth.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“worries were almost physical beings, leechy creatures with latchhooks for fingers, meant to be vanquished immediately.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places

“Worries find you easily enough without inviting them. With Diane, worries were almost physical beings, leechy creatures with latchhooks for fingers, meant to be vanquished immediately. Diane didn’t worry, that was for less hearty women.”
― Gillian Flynn, Dark Places