Annabel > Annabel's Quotes

“Love feels like a great misfortune, a monstrous parasite, a permanent state of emergency that ruins all small pleasures.”
― Slavoj Žižek

“It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance.”
― Xiaolu Guo, A Concise Chinese-English Dictionary for Lovers

“Its important to be comfortable with uncertainty.”
― Xiaolu Guo

“In China, we say: 'There are many dreams in a long night.' It has been a long night, but I don't know if I want to continue the dreams. It feels like I am walking on a little path, both sides are dark mountains and valleys. I am walking towards a little light in the distance. Walking, and walking, I am seeing that light diminishing. I am seeing myself walk towards the end of the love, the sad end.
I love you more than I loved you before. I love you more than I should love you. But I must leave. I am losing myself. It is painful that I can't see myself. It is time for me to say those words you kept telling me recently. 'Yes, I agree with you. We can't be together.”
― Xiaolu Guo, A Concise Chinese-English Dictionary for Lovers

“But why people need privacy? Why privacy is important? In China, every family live together, grandparents, parents, daughter, son and their relatives too. Eat together and share everything, talk about everything. Privacy make people lonely. Privacy make family fallen apart.”
― Xiaolu Guo, A Concise Chinese-English Dictionary for Lovers

“I don't feel naked around you anymore. ”
― Xiaolu Guo

“I thought that you would bring everything into my life. I thought you are my Jesus. You are my priest, my light. So I always believed you are my only home here. I feel so insecure because I am so scared of losing you. That's why I want to control you. I want you are in my view always and I want cut off your extension to the world and your extension to the others.
I think of those days when I travelled in Europe on my own. I met many people and finally I wasn't so afraid of being alone. Maybe I should let my life open, like a flower; maybe I should fly, like a lonely bird. I shouldn't be blocked by a tree, and I shouldn't be scared about losing one tree, instead of seeing a whole forest.”
― Xiaolu Guo, A Concise Chinese-English Dictionary for Lovers

“Huizi would say, never look back to the past. Never regret. Even if there is emptiness ahead, never look back.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“Maybe I not need feeling lonely, because I can talk to other "me." Is like seeing my two pieces of lips speaking in two languages at same time. Yes, I not lonely, because I with another me. Like Austin Powers with his Mini Me”
― Xiaolu Guo, A Concise Chinese-English Dictionary for Lovers

“Then he asked my age and I asked his. That's the tradition in China. If we know each other's ages we can understand each other's past. We Chinese have been collective for so long, personal histories are not worth mentioning. Therefore as soon as Xiaolin and I knew how old the other was, we knew exactly what big shit had happened in our lives. The introduction of the One Child Policy shortly before out births, for instance and the fact that, in 1985, two pandas were sent to the USA as a national gift and we had to sing a tearful panda song at school. 1989 was the Tiananmen Square student demonstration. Anyway, Xiaolin was one year younger than me, so I assumed we were from the same generation.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“Red's world, you see, is a closed circle. Not that it matters. I know that I'm a closed circle, too, and it's all I can do to find some starting point from myself, while at the same time trying to find my own terminus. There's no way I'm ever going to find my beginning or end in somebody else's circle. Two people together never add up to anything more than one person added to another. That we continue to add ourselves up in this way is the reason human beings will always be lonely.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Village of Stone

“Mrs. Margaret sigh heavy. Then she standing up, and starting make her own tea. She drink it in very thirsty way, like angry camel in the desert.”
― Xiaolu Guo, A Concise Chinese-English Dictionary for Lovers

“I am sick of speaking English like this... I am scared that I have become a person who is always very aware of talking, speaking, and I have become a person without confidence, because I can't be me. I have become so small, so tiny, while the English culture surrounding me becomes enormous. It swallows me... I am dominated by it... Why do we have to force ourselves to communicate with people? Why is the process of communication so troubled and so painful?”
― Xiaolu Guo, A Concise Chinese-English Dictionary for Lovers

“But what so different of eating plants? Everything has it's life. If you are so pure, why not just stop eating? So you can have no shit?”
― Xiaolu Guo, A Concise Chinese-English Dictionary for Lovers

“I thought English is a strange language. Now I think French is even more strange. In France, their fish is poisson, their bread is pain, and their pancake is crepe. Pain and poison and crap. That's what they have every day.”
― Xiaolu Guo, A Concise Chinese-English Dictionary for Lovers

“Heavenly Bastard in the Sky”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“Hot coffee is like a warm-blooded man. They both give you the courage to face a new day.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“Yours is the face of a post-modern woman.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“Never look back to the past, never regret, even if there is emptiness ahead.' But I couldn't help it. Sometimes I would rather look back if it meant that I could feel something in my heart, even something sad. Sadness was better than emptiness.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“I'd try to wash away the noise of the weeping woman and the vision of dust, but it echoed in my head all day.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“I wanted to hide away and write. I wanted to meet characters who would climb up my pen. I wanted to create a completely new world, inventing everyone and everything.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“I felt an urge to conquer this new village.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“They think there are only two kinds of young women in China: good girls or prostitutes.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“Heavenly Bastard in the Sky, these cockroaches were sadomasochists, looking for the most painful way to die. Once I swallowed one absent-mindedly drinking my tea. Traumatised, I rang the local chemist. The voice on the line was gently reassuring: cockroaches were not poisonous, ingesting one would cause me no harm. Though, the chemist added, in terms of protein they were not as nutritious as snails.”
― Xiaolu Guo, Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

“The way we understand both our present and our future depends on what we have lived through.”
― Xinran, Message from an Unknown Chinese Mother: Stories of Loss and Love

“No one likes crying, but tears water our souls.”
― Xinran, Sky Burial: An Epic Love Story of Tibet

“The more you read, the more you want to know, and so the more questions you have.”
― Xinran, Miss Chopsticks

“Everybody says women are like water. I think it's because water is the source of life, and it adapts itself to its environment. Like women, water also gives of itself wherever it goes to nurture life....”
― Xinran, The Good Women of China: Hidden Voices